This is for Markita.
I have absolutely NO idea how you know when a girl's just not that into you b/c I'm a boy, lmao!
I kid, I kid...kinda...I may not be the best person to ask how do you know when a girl's not that into you b/c I'm never into anyone + I don't like to do stuff most girls like to do...but I'll try to think more like a girl & less like...well...myself.
When she doesn't know that you're into her...see girls are kinda different even if they aren't into you they still want to think that you would be into them even though they aren't even into you...wait maybe that's how guys & shallow girls are...idk!
Well I think when a girl doesn't know that you're into here its easier to tell when she's not into you...girls for the most part are touchy-feely however sometimes when they are into someone they won't be...so depending on how she hugs you...is it a friendly hug like upper body hug or is it more physical, like full body.
Oh here's a big one...does she talk to other guys in front of you, she's definitely NOT into you if she will talk to another guy in front of you, unless he's gay, that's really disrespectful anyways! So you may want to reconsider her, she's trife!
If she tries to hook you up w/other girls.
If she talks to you about other guys, like not really getting your opinion but just in conversation "so on so does this & that & blah blah"...but if she kinda wants your opinion a lot, that maybe an indicator that she's into you.
If she will only text you...now even I must say that @ some point, if I like someone, I want to talk to them on the phone sometimes.
This is when she knows you like her...
When she only wants to hang out w/you if someone else, like another friend, probably mutual, is there as well.
When she actually would prefer that you not pay for her...food...or whatever.
When she acts distant.
When she feels less comfortable around you.
When she tells you she doesn't want to ruin your friendship.
When you kiss her or attempt to & she pulls back or doesn't allow it to happen again.
When she says...she's just not that into you...that's what I would do!
A regular girl should do this...I'm too uh...idk...different...but hey whatever...girls don't play games as much as guys @ least not in this regard...you will usually know when a girl doesn't like you.
Signing off,
~S. Parks
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Thursday, February 5, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
I Confess...I'm a Swinger!
When I tell you I'm the moodiest person I know.
I think its b/c I'm super sensitive but I learned to turn that sensitivity into apathy but sometimes random shit will tick me off & then that same thing may not even shake me 2 days l8r or hell 2 days prior.
I know, I'm a strange character. I don't even know how people deal w/me sometimes, lol, here's the thing...I don't even care. Most times I don't like nobody anyways & those I do like if they left today I have convinced myself I'd be over it tomorrow. I swear I think I don't need anyone except Jesus (but Lord please don't turn this into a test & throw me out into the world by my lonesome, thanks!)!
I think text books call this: a defense mechanism.
Ahh higher education, surely does come in handy *rolls eyes*
Common sense: the more you grow...the more you know & the 1st step in the know is admission.
I've admitted & now I'm content.
Goodbye.
~Shanette the Great!
I'm still fabulous, flaws & all!
Deal w/it!
I think its b/c I'm super sensitive but I learned to turn that sensitivity into apathy but sometimes random shit will tick me off & then that same thing may not even shake me 2 days l8r or hell 2 days prior.
I know, I'm a strange character. I don't even know how people deal w/me sometimes, lol, here's the thing...I don't even care. Most times I don't like nobody anyways & those I do like if they left today I have convinced myself I'd be over it tomorrow. I swear I think I don't need anyone except Jesus (but Lord please don't turn this into a test & throw me out into the world by my lonesome, thanks!)!
I think text books call this: a defense mechanism.
Ahh higher education, surely does come in handy *rolls eyes*
Common sense: the more you grow...the more you know & the 1st step in the know is admission.
I've admitted & now I'm content.
Goodbye.
~Shanette the Great!
I'm still fabulous, flaws & all!
Deal w/it!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Be! Patient. Love?
Post brought to you in part by Kanye West's Coldest Winter-808s & Heartbreak
Shouts out to all the people in love, y'all some suckas, lol, just playing!
Fa real though this post is for the people who aren't in love but have been in love...
Don't you sometimes ask yourself if you'll ever love again?
I was just thinking man its been like 5 years since I've been in love. I'm sure to some people that sounds sad & I guess it would be if I cared that much, but I don't, though I'm a special case so I'll try to speak a bit more general. I guess loving & losing is not an easy thing to deal with when you're really in love. When I was in love, it was the best place to be, but I never saw past it, hence when the future of not being in love became my present I couldn't deal & chose to remain in the past. Most people do it, they focus on the past in hopes of it reincarnating in the future, however 9 times out of 10, that does not happen. Either things get better or they get worse, but they don't remain the same that's for sure. Unfortunately for me they changed for the worse & I think I lost a little hope I had in the future, hence affecting my present.
What do I mean?
I mean I can't really open myself up to love today b/c of my past which is totally unfair to my future & whether I care to admit it or not I'm suffering, maybe not physically but definitely emotionally. Relationships are an aspect of life we need just like we need food & water. It makes us better, eventually. What people don't recognize is that in the toughest times, in your seemingly lowest moments, your worst days...you grow the most, you fight the hardest & you transform into a better you, if you use that time to your advantage. Every situation in life has its positives & its negatives. Of course initially its easiest to dwell on the negatives but its in the positives we discover who we are.
I've grown so much this year & I'm ready for a new & better Shanette in 2009, I'm ready...so if y'all ain't ready, get back, cus I put on...for myself, lol!
What am I saying?
I'm saying take all the seemingly negatives you experienced this year, make peace & let them go. Reflect on the positives & move forward. Laugh a lot. Live for you. & Love for Him.
Love for you too...I remember that when I loved more & hated less, omg, I was the best version of myself, real talk. I'm not saying go jump into love. I'm just saying don't turn your back on it, b/c in love we were created, its apart of us. We need love to live. Think about it. Try loving yourself if you haven't tried that thus far. Try loving God, simply b/c he first love you! Then maybe try loving someone else, in spite of...
Be open to the possibilities, it is in the openness you find opportunity.
Be patient with love, in patience you find peace.
Be you for in you, you find love & in love you find life!
While you can't be foolish, everyone plays the fool sometimes, @ least one time. Don't fight it, its inevitable, essential for living, good living!
Keep on living,
~Shanette Renea
Shouts out to all the people in love, y'all some suckas, lol, just playing!
Fa real though this post is for the people who aren't in love but have been in love...
Don't you sometimes ask yourself if you'll ever love again?
I was just thinking man its been like 5 years since I've been in love. I'm sure to some people that sounds sad & I guess it would be if I cared that much, but I don't, though I'm a special case so I'll try to speak a bit more general. I guess loving & losing is not an easy thing to deal with when you're really in love. When I was in love, it was the best place to be, but I never saw past it, hence when the future of not being in love became my present I couldn't deal & chose to remain in the past. Most people do it, they focus on the past in hopes of it reincarnating in the future, however 9 times out of 10, that does not happen. Either things get better or they get worse, but they don't remain the same that's for sure. Unfortunately for me they changed for the worse & I think I lost a little hope I had in the future, hence affecting my present.
What do I mean?
I mean I can't really open myself up to love today b/c of my past which is totally unfair to my future & whether I care to admit it or not I'm suffering, maybe not physically but definitely emotionally. Relationships are an aspect of life we need just like we need food & water. It makes us better, eventually. What people don't recognize is that in the toughest times, in your seemingly lowest moments, your worst days...you grow the most, you fight the hardest & you transform into a better you, if you use that time to your advantage. Every situation in life has its positives & its negatives. Of course initially its easiest to dwell on the negatives but its in the positives we discover who we are.
I've grown so much this year & I'm ready for a new & better Shanette in 2009, I'm ready...so if y'all ain't ready, get back, cus I put on...for myself, lol!
What am I saying?
I'm saying take all the seemingly negatives you experienced this year, make peace & let them go. Reflect on the positives & move forward. Laugh a lot. Live for you. & Love for Him.
Love for you too...I remember that when I loved more & hated less, omg, I was the best version of myself, real talk. I'm not saying go jump into love. I'm just saying don't turn your back on it, b/c in love we were created, its apart of us. We need love to live. Think about it. Try loving yourself if you haven't tried that thus far. Try loving God, simply b/c he first love you! Then maybe try loving someone else, in spite of...
Be open to the possibilities, it is in the openness you find opportunity.
Be patient with love, in patience you find peace.
Be you for in you, you find love & in love you find life!
While you can't be foolish, everyone plays the fool sometimes, @ least one time. Don't fight it, its inevitable, essential for living, good living!
Keep on living,
~Shanette Renea
Thursday, September 11, 2008
What are YOU Sowing?
Hey guys & gals,
Sorry I’ve been away for so long…I don’t really have an excuse…I just haven’t really felt like writing (or typing so to speak).
I’m back now though & that’s all that matters is the present, right? Right.
So the other day I was reading this month’s Ebony magazine w/Tyler Perry on the cover, a mag which I rarely read-btw, was surprisingly quite good overall.
I really enjoyed this particular article, "What are you Sowing," about Ms. Tasha Smith, best known for her role in his (Tyler Perry) movie Why Did I Get Married? Amongst other movies, as well as appearances on TV shows like Tyra Banks’ ANTM, she’s the chick who kinda always seems to have a really fucked up attitude (in the characters she portrays).
Anyways, in this article she talks about how she was that girl who always had a bad attitude, that girl who’s always getting into it w/people & blaming them for the confrontations, that girl who always thinks she’s right & ain’t tryna hear shit nobody got to say…until she did some re-evaluating, some self-discovery & found that she was the problem. The energy she was putting out there was in turn manifesting itself in her life & how others treated her…how ironic huh?! I think that’s what they call karma.
Basically she was reaping what she was sowing? All that negative energy she was displacing was bouncing right back onto her w/o even realizing it…her unhappiness, her inability to forgive, to let go & let God was inhibiting her growth, her progression, her destiny. Not until she took responsibility for her own actions & moved beyond her hurt & forgave & forgot those who had wronged her in the past, did she move forward & become the success she is today. She found self-love…the key ingredient to being happy…it starts from within! The contentment she sought after & confusingly mistook for something she could find in things or other people, was within herself all along. She then began to spread that joy, just b/c it made her feel good to make others feel great & so the cycle continues…
That article was all too familiar to me b/c I was, still kinda am that girl.
I was once known to have a wretched attitude, it isn’t the best as of yet, but it has come a long way, but I can see myself reverting to my old habits, my old mentality, my old attitude b/c of situations or things that I seemingly can’t control?
It’s hard to see beyond the obvious sometimes, by that I mean, as human beings we waver in our faith, in our commitment to our promises, in our ability to remain steadfast in what we know to be the means for greatness. We like to shortcut, to blame, to forget who we are...in God...what we’re capable of & the power we possess! We sometimes let the world, society & even the company we keep, dictate how we view our lives, as it should/shouldn’t be. We falsely base our happiness on what we can see & touch vs. what we believe & how we feel.
I know I am a work in progress & as I rapidly approach the BIG 2 5, I’m reminding myself daily that just b/c I can’t see my success, I still have to see my success. I have to believe it to be so & live as such. Being unhappy until… Being bitter until… Being temperamental until… I’ll never make it past the until…I will always be waiting, allowing myself to get in the way of my destiny!
That can’t be my life, that’s not the life I had planned! That’s not the life I’ve worked hard for! Most importantly that’s not the life that God wants for me, that he has for me & that’s the only thing that keeps me focused!
If I’ve learned anything in my time in Memphis it’s that life doesn’t always work the way we would like it, but it’s better when we roll w/it & do it w/a smile, otherwise you’ll be miserable forever & I’m far too fly to be miserable, makes you age fast & die young & I’ve got too much to do w/my life, how about you?!
So my advice would be (if this @ all applies to you in some form or fashion), fake it till you make it…I’m not saying don’t be you b/c you know I’m a firm believer in the realness baby…like Plies says “I went to sleep real, woke up realer!” I’m just saying put out there what you want back, don’t be so judgmental, so critical, so arrogant, and so bitchy that you can’t recognize the next person’s swagger & how they can benefit you, that you can’t bless someone else that you can’t be pleasant, encourage others…recognizing greatness in others doesn’t negate your greatness, it makes you greater!
All I’m saying is the power is within…think it, feel it, speak it, do it!
…guess it’s about time I start taking my own advice…the hardest thing to do!
I can preach all day bay but can hardly follow the rules…I’m on it though…getting too old for the foolishness anyways!
Anywhoo…
Be Happy. Love you. Spread the love. & Give God the glory always & forever!
~Shanette R. Parks
Sorry I’ve been away for so long…I don’t really have an excuse…I just haven’t really felt like writing (or typing so to speak).
I’m back now though & that’s all that matters is the present, right? Right.
So the other day I was reading this month’s Ebony magazine w/Tyler Perry on the cover, a mag which I rarely read-btw, was surprisingly quite good overall.
I really enjoyed this particular article, "What are you Sowing," about Ms. Tasha Smith, best known for her role in his (Tyler Perry) movie Why Did I Get Married? Amongst other movies, as well as appearances on TV shows like Tyra Banks’ ANTM, she’s the chick who kinda always seems to have a really fucked up attitude (in the characters she portrays).
Anyways, in this article she talks about how she was that girl who always had a bad attitude, that girl who’s always getting into it w/people & blaming them for the confrontations, that girl who always thinks she’s right & ain’t tryna hear shit nobody got to say…until she did some re-evaluating, some self-discovery & found that she was the problem. The energy she was putting out there was in turn manifesting itself in her life & how others treated her…how ironic huh?! I think that’s what they call karma.
Basically she was reaping what she was sowing? All that negative energy she was displacing was bouncing right back onto her w/o even realizing it…her unhappiness, her inability to forgive, to let go & let God was inhibiting her growth, her progression, her destiny. Not until she took responsibility for her own actions & moved beyond her hurt & forgave & forgot those who had wronged her in the past, did she move forward & become the success she is today. She found self-love…the key ingredient to being happy…it starts from within! The contentment she sought after & confusingly mistook for something she could find in things or other people, was within herself all along. She then began to spread that joy, just b/c it made her feel good to make others feel great & so the cycle continues…
That article was all too familiar to me b/c I was, still kinda am that girl.
I was once known to have a wretched attitude, it isn’t the best as of yet, but it has come a long way, but I can see myself reverting to my old habits, my old mentality, my old attitude b/c of situations or things that I seemingly can’t control?
It’s hard to see beyond the obvious sometimes, by that I mean, as human beings we waver in our faith, in our commitment to our promises, in our ability to remain steadfast in what we know to be the means for greatness. We like to shortcut, to blame, to forget who we are...in God...what we’re capable of & the power we possess! We sometimes let the world, society & even the company we keep, dictate how we view our lives, as it should/shouldn’t be. We falsely base our happiness on what we can see & touch vs. what we believe & how we feel.
I know I am a work in progress & as I rapidly approach the BIG 2 5, I’m reminding myself daily that just b/c I can’t see my success, I still have to see my success. I have to believe it to be so & live as such. Being unhappy until… Being bitter until… Being temperamental until… I’ll never make it past the until…I will always be waiting, allowing myself to get in the way of my destiny!
That can’t be my life, that’s not the life I had planned! That’s not the life I’ve worked hard for! Most importantly that’s not the life that God wants for me, that he has for me & that’s the only thing that keeps me focused!
If I’ve learned anything in my time in Memphis it’s that life doesn’t always work the way we would like it, but it’s better when we roll w/it & do it w/a smile, otherwise you’ll be miserable forever & I’m far too fly to be miserable, makes you age fast & die young & I’ve got too much to do w/my life, how about you?!
So my advice would be (if this @ all applies to you in some form or fashion), fake it till you make it…I’m not saying don’t be you b/c you know I’m a firm believer in the realness baby…like Plies says “I went to sleep real, woke up realer!” I’m just saying put out there what you want back, don’t be so judgmental, so critical, so arrogant, and so bitchy that you can’t recognize the next person’s swagger & how they can benefit you, that you can’t bless someone else that you can’t be pleasant, encourage others…recognizing greatness in others doesn’t negate your greatness, it makes you greater!
All I’m saying is the power is within…think it, feel it, speak it, do it!
…guess it’s about time I start taking my own advice…the hardest thing to do!
I can preach all day bay but can hardly follow the rules…I’m on it though…getting too old for the foolishness anyways!
Anywhoo…
Be Happy. Love you. Spread the love. & Give God the glory always & forever!
~Shanette R. Parks
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Lines
Friends.
Friends w/Benefits.
Fuck Friends (you know I'm crass...deal w/it!).
Definition.
Precision.
Clarity.
These help me keep a certain mindset...to maintain stability…to be less confused & more in control…two things that can literally drive me insane…being confused & out of control! Whooo lawd! I can't hardly even much take it!
Unfortunately MEN! Don’t need all this…but then they wonder why they’ve mislead a person or why someone is cutting their nuts off (btw-I loathe Jesse Jackson)!
I don’t play games!
I’m very honest.
I’m really real.
So…I hope for the same in return. This is to the benefit of all parties involved. Unfortunately I appear more so intimidating than accommodating.
If we start out as just friends & grow into more…that’s fine but trust me were probably going to discuss it several times before things really go there…just for the sake of not losing a friendship.
If we start out talking as people getting to know each other…& it progresses into intimacy…that’s fine too as long as we understand what that means & how that changes things.
If we start out just fucking…not a problem…but it can’t go (@ least not w/me) from just fucking to just friends or lovers or whatever.
We have to have these boundaries b/c clearly folk can't hardly control themselves & their emotions.
Pause: do boys know that girls like sex too? Like a lot? No like really…a LOT! Sometimes, we too prefer string-less sex, or sometimes we want to go there but are fearful of how we may be perceived (the latter doesn’t apply to me though) etc. We still want to be pursued & respected & treated like a lady but there is a manner in which you approach a woman strictly on a physical level. (Actually, guys think physically first…unlike women who usually think sincerely about the possibility of a relationship.) When you want to just pursue a physical relationship w/a person…for whatever reason…maybe you’re involved, or maybe you just don’t have time or maybe that’s just really all you want from the person either way honesty is the BEST policy. Be straight up about your situation, but do it w/tact & charm, don’t scare the person. Make her feel comfortable & sexy, b/c basically you want her in a sexual capacity right…let her know what you’re offering but again do it tactfully & I guarantee if she has even the slightest thought she will comply w/your request.
I mean...I'm just saying...but hey who am I?
Play: I go into situations w/men fully prepared…b/c I can’t afford to be mislead or confused or hurt or disillusioned b/c he likes to play games…I just don’t have time for the bullshit & I’m not cool w/looking like a fool…I’m just not that girl.
Therefore I can’t hardly take it…these dealings w/men! Seriously, they make my stomach hurt. They are more (these days) wishy-washy than women & its not cute. Boys are so dumb I swear to god. The time they take fucking people over they could’ve fucked twice that many people. I swear HONESTY! The biggest (right after $ & smelling nice) turn-on! Maybe it’s just me but when a man is upfront w/me I’m instantly attracted to him & I never like anyone-so that says a lot! Here’s the catch though I don’t hardly be believing what folk say-lol! Catch-22? Yep.
Anyways I’m just saying I don’t operate well w/abruptivity (yes I made that up). I like to discuss things. I like clear & open air. I like to be aware of moves & shifts in situations & feelings b/c I just don’t deal well when I’ve been mislead or confused (I know I keep saying that), intentionally.
Basically niggas need to grow the fuck up. Nobody has time for these whack ass games y’all play. Like seriously!
Get a life!
"I do what I do & you do what you can do about it!" ~Weezy F. Baby, The Carter iii
~Sdot
Friends w/Benefits.
Fuck Friends (you know I'm crass...deal w/it!).
Definition.
Precision.
Clarity.
These help me keep a certain mindset...to maintain stability…to be less confused & more in control…two things that can literally drive me insane…being confused & out of control! Whooo lawd! I can't hardly even much take it!
Unfortunately MEN! Don’t need all this…but then they wonder why they’ve mislead a person or why someone is cutting their nuts off (btw-I loathe Jesse Jackson)!
I don’t play games!
I’m very honest.
I’m really real.
So…I hope for the same in return. This is to the benefit of all parties involved. Unfortunately I appear more so intimidating than accommodating.
If we start out as just friends & grow into more…that’s fine but trust me were probably going to discuss it several times before things really go there…just for the sake of not losing a friendship.
If we start out talking as people getting to know each other…& it progresses into intimacy…that’s fine too as long as we understand what that means & how that changes things.
If we start out just fucking…not a problem…but it can’t go (@ least not w/me) from just fucking to just friends or lovers or whatever.
We have to have these boundaries b/c clearly folk can't hardly control themselves & their emotions.
Pause: do boys know that girls like sex too? Like a lot? No like really…a LOT! Sometimes, we too prefer string-less sex, or sometimes we want to go there but are fearful of how we may be perceived (the latter doesn’t apply to me though) etc. We still want to be pursued & respected & treated like a lady but there is a manner in which you approach a woman strictly on a physical level. (Actually, guys think physically first…unlike women who usually think sincerely about the possibility of a relationship.) When you want to just pursue a physical relationship w/a person…for whatever reason…maybe you’re involved, or maybe you just don’t have time or maybe that’s just really all you want from the person either way honesty is the BEST policy. Be straight up about your situation, but do it w/tact & charm, don’t scare the person. Make her feel comfortable & sexy, b/c basically you want her in a sexual capacity right…let her know what you’re offering but again do it tactfully & I guarantee if she has even the slightest thought she will comply w/your request.
I mean...I'm just saying...but hey who am I?
Play: I go into situations w/men fully prepared…b/c I can’t afford to be mislead or confused or hurt or disillusioned b/c he likes to play games…I just don’t have time for the bullshit & I’m not cool w/looking like a fool…I’m just not that girl.
Therefore I can’t hardly take it…these dealings w/men! Seriously, they make my stomach hurt. They are more (these days) wishy-washy than women & its not cute. Boys are so dumb I swear to god. The time they take fucking people over they could’ve fucked twice that many people. I swear HONESTY! The biggest (right after $ & smelling nice) turn-on! Maybe it’s just me but when a man is upfront w/me I’m instantly attracted to him & I never like anyone-so that says a lot! Here’s the catch though I don’t hardly be believing what folk say-lol! Catch-22? Yep.
Anyways I’m just saying I don’t operate well w/abruptivity (yes I made that up). I like to discuss things. I like clear & open air. I like to be aware of moves & shifts in situations & feelings b/c I just don’t deal well when I’ve been mislead or confused (I know I keep saying that), intentionally.
Basically niggas need to grow the fuck up. Nobody has time for these whack ass games y’all play. Like seriously!
Get a life!
"I do what I do & you do what you can do about it!" ~Weezy F. Baby, The Carter iii
~Sdot
Sunday, June 22, 2008
2 more months…
In church today, I thought about my attitude towards Memphis & how it's not helping my situation…in fact I think it's making me crazier…everyday that awake I literally have to fight for my sanity in this place & in doing so I'm doing insane things…but that's another post…
So I was thinking that maybe just maybe if I make serious effort to live it up my last couple months here they'll go by faster, good things may happen, and I won't lose my mind before my departure. What you think?
Okay, so I'm deciding today, that I'm whole-heartedly going to focus on making something happen every day (as if I don't do that already)…something positive, something new, or old, maybe even fun…hopefully free (good luck w/that)!
I mean in retrospect I only have a couple more months here, @ least that's what I'm feeling & my feelings are usually right.
Though the plans aren't set, neither is the date, no jobs in place, seemingly no place to live…in New York…I'm still promising myself that in about 2 months (give or take a month), I'll be packing my things (though I live out of a suitcase anyways) & heading to my new life, in a new city…YAY!
Who's excited?! ME that's who!
So in the meantime w/o spending too much doe I'm going to have a little fun…in Memphis…ha…you should see my face.
No but really though, I'm really going to try really hard though! (3 reallys? Really!)
Happy summer '08 Guys! J
~S. Parks
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Uh oh uh oh...its OBAMA TIME BEECH!!!
HEY HEY!!!
What do you say?!
What are we having for breakfast today?!
HILARY CLINTON!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
Okay that was a joke, but no seriously, how fucking awesome has this whole presidential nominee race been?! Like aside from all the negative ish, mostly Sen. Clinton's doing, this is some monumental almost totally asinine historical type ish we're witnessing right now on today!
I mean @ 24, I can say that I voted, I voted for a black man & he won the democratic nomination (& WILL win the WHOLE sha-bang-I'm a believer)! Is that not the coolest?! Duh, that's like TOTALLY BIG shit poppin!
Obama ROCKS...my world, & the whole world, if the Hil-dil supporters get on board...so get on board tricks!
Now, I'm not so sure how I feel about her on his ticket though...I'm slick scared she might try some shady shit. I mean I'm just saying she bust that fat ass cool white chick bubble I had her in, when she started being real cut-throat...yes I know its politics, but Jesus Christ lady, have a little class, no? Okay, well that's why yo ass, what?! LOST!!! BOOYOW!!! Take that, take that, like Diddy! Okay, okay...Hil Imma get off you, though I have no clue why you won't just sit yo ass down, like a graceful loser...oh wait maybe its b/c you aren't graceful or maybe its b/c you can't stand the fact that you've lost to a what, a who, a BLACK MAN! Well, I'll say this, Sen. Clinton, to you & all your supporters, who will soon be, if they're smart, his supporters, y'all better get w/it or get LOST baby, or better yet get rolled the fuck over b/c the Obama train is steady on the grind, ALL ABOARD!
Can you tell how much I'm loving this?! Well I so AM!!! *rocking my Obama pins SO extra tuff today too*
I'm so proud, on today (& every other), to be a woman, a black woman, an educated, proactive black woman, on the rise!
Watch out America, its DEFINITELY the TAKE OVER, BITCHES!!!
Picture me ROLLING!!!
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/politics/2008/06/03/sot.obama.entire.cnn
HOPE. ACTION. CHANGE.
OBAMA '08
~S. Parks
What do you say?!
What are we having for breakfast today?!
HILARY CLINTON!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
Okay that was a joke, but no seriously, how fucking awesome has this whole presidential nominee race been?! Like aside from all the negative ish, mostly Sen. Clinton's doing, this is some monumental almost totally asinine historical type ish we're witnessing right now on today!
I mean @ 24, I can say that I voted, I voted for a black man & he won the democratic nomination (& WILL win the WHOLE sha-bang-I'm a believer)! Is that not the coolest?! Duh, that's like TOTALLY BIG shit poppin!
Obama ROCKS...my world, & the whole world, if the Hil-dil supporters get on board...so get on board tricks!
Now, I'm not so sure how I feel about her on his ticket though...I'm slick scared she might try some shady shit. I mean I'm just saying she bust that fat ass cool white chick bubble I had her in, when she started being real cut-throat...yes I know its politics, but Jesus Christ lady, have a little class, no? Okay, well that's why yo ass, what?! LOST!!! BOOYOW!!! Take that, take that, like Diddy! Okay, okay...Hil Imma get off you, though I have no clue why you won't just sit yo ass down, like a graceful loser...oh wait maybe its b/c you aren't graceful or maybe its b/c you can't stand the fact that you've lost to a what, a who, a BLACK MAN! Well, I'll say this, Sen. Clinton, to you & all your supporters, who will soon be, if they're smart, his supporters, y'all better get w/it or get LOST baby, or better yet get rolled the fuck over b/c the Obama train is steady on the grind, ALL ABOARD!
Can you tell how much I'm loving this?! Well I so AM!!! *rocking my Obama pins SO extra tuff today too*
I'm so proud, on today (& every other), to be a woman, a black woman, an educated, proactive black woman, on the rise!
Watch out America, its DEFINITELY the TAKE OVER, BITCHES!!!
Picture me ROLLING!!!
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/politics/2008/06/03/sot.obama.entire.cnn
HOPE. ACTION. CHANGE.
OBAMA '08
~S. Parks
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Liar, Liar…Foolish!
I swear I cannot stand a lying ass nigga! Sure women lie, children lie, hell I lie…but niggas…niggas are just LIARS! There's a difference & for the life of me I cannot understand why! As up front as I am, as real as I am, as straight-forward, as forth-coming, as honest…STILL niggas LIE! WHY?! Just WHY?!
This is me…"Hi my name is Shanette, I'm 24. I have a degree. I have a job…2 in fact. I was supposed to be a doctor but I'm thinking I wanna be a buyer or something really cool like that, kinda like Whitney on the The Hills! I don't have kids. I don't want kids (today…possibly ever). I STRONGLY dislike Memphis. I love God. I'm not a virgin. I like sex…like a LOT…NO you can't fuck me…no I don't have a bf & I'm okay w/that & naw I ain't lying…& no, nothing is wrong w/me…y'all (men) are just whack as hell & I ain't got time for the bullshit! Sure, you can have my number but I may not answer @ first b/c I'm not that good w/phone calls so I'll prolly call you back…eventually…but more than likely I'll text you. Oh yeah, I HATE voicemail…the END! Again, I forewarn you…I'm NO easy task…so…you may wanna re-consider…I'm just saying…" Okay maybe I don't say that verbatim BUT I do get most of that in there upon first meeting…that's a lot of information, but it's really just basic need-to-know…not too deep…just enough for you to know where I am in life & if you can work w/that…if I can work w/you…if you're even working w/something! All I expect in return is the same courtesy of an honest first meeting. ESPECIALLY if you are the one trying to holla…I mean I am really confused as to why niggas feel the need to lie to somebody they don't even know…I mean who am I for you to be lying to??? It's frustrating b/c they could get so much further…so much respect…so much more if they were just honest from jump. Say what you want…that doesn't mean you have to be demeaning about it by saying I just wanna fuck you…but that same phrase can be said in a more tactful way…b/c you never know the chick you checking for maybe just the girl to handle that…she could just want the same. Or she could want more…but you too damn concerned w/selling dreams & shit that you neglect the simple fact that honesty is indeed the best policy…why? B/c the truth ALWAYS comes out & WTF do you voluntarily want to live w/unnecessary lies anyways…weighing down on your conscious…maintaining double, triple, multiple lives based on lies…its insanity to me! Complete & utter INSANITY!
These are the reasons I can't hardly not deal w/niggas…makes my fucking head hurt & I don't like that shit…trying to figure out what is the truth & what is a lie…WHY?! You not even my man & you lying?! Is it just me or is that completely asinine?!
As much as I don't give a fuck about niggas & the dumb shit they be saying, the woman in me still wants to believe that for once @ least one will tell the truth…WRONG! Now I feel like a dumbass! I swear I feel like a fucking idiot…very foolish…why would this bitch introduce me to his friends, be ALL OVER me in public, and practically force me to get a key to his apartment (which I did NOT get)…to end up having a gf! WHY?! Is that not some crazy shit?! Now I feel like a fucking home wrecking low-life slut bitch b/c I'm fucking another girl's man! That's trifling & I don't like it…I don't like it @ all! I do NOT fuck other bitches' niggas…NO thanks! Then this nigga aint even worth it…cus the sex was pretty much WHACK!
AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm disappointed in my own self!
Lesson learned ladies: Don't be a fool!
(5/19/08) Update: Uh…I'm still involved…I know right…slap me! I'm just so damn bored…I'm settling & I know that's awful but its true…what's even worse is that I know better yet I digress! I blame Memphis! L
…& these are the reasons I don't bother w/niggas & I'm abstinent more often than not…both factors fuck up my mental & I just can't have that…so Imma do better…boredom or not!
Update #2 (5/26/08): So...I finally asked if in fact he has a gf & he said "yeah, now what?" Now what?! Now what the fuck?! What do you mean, now what?! WTH?! Uh....now I don't even know...isn't that totally horrific?! *sighs* ...I'll be back...unfortunately!
Shamefully,
S. Parks
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Its been a LONG time coming...
Taking a break from my trivial little self-absorbed life to pay homage & respect to those who have come before me. Those who toiled & struggled to make certain that the life I lead today is filled w/joy & happiness & ultimately freedom.
Think about that for a moment...can you imagine dedicating your entire existence to assure that not even you, maybe not even your children but the future children, maybe your great grands & their generation have a better life. Can you imagine that, that's like totally insane! No? You suffer. You fight. You die. All in the name of justice, freedom, equality...for the future!!! AMAZING! I can't even express in words how that affects my mind, my soul.
I mean I don't really like talking about all the different things that have happened to the black community, just b/c I can't really handle it w/o getting angry. I haven't really experienced blatant racism in my life, so I have little to compare anything to, but I think its important for young Black America to remain abreast of their history, not just to avoid repeating the past but for a clear sense of self. That knowledge can enable us to be a better people. To pattern those before us, to create a better future for ourselves and those to come. Its imperative. Its critical! Its life saving.
I have always thought about how I my life can be a vessel, a model, for my peers, for the younger generation. I would hate for the work of my immediate ancestors, grandparents, parents even to be a waste b/c I chose not to be to carry out their efforts. That is a huge fear of mine.
So...I try not get so full of myself. Which is why I took a trip to the National Civil Rights Museum this week. I learned SO much...I needed like a whole day though...so I will definitely return, maybe next Monday. It is truly amazing to know I come from such greatness. I don't think people understand that struggle=character=GREATNESS! Those people who sacrificed their lives for you & me, gave us definition, which is why we MUST read...to know who we are, where we come from, what we're capable of doing. Look @ how far God has brought us as a people...from being classified as less than a person to a presidential hopeful...WOW!!! AWESOME!!!
Here's a few pictures from the Museum (that I wasn't supposed to take, but I couldn't resist...so enjoy & be inspired!)...
"WHITE ONLY" (Backwards)
"3/5 of a Man"
Conversation between Mrs. Corretta Scott King & Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., 4/16/63, while he was in jail.
Malcolm the Great!!!
Sonia Sanchez on Bro. Malcolm.
They died for us to vote...so VOTE!!!
"Black Panther Party"
"The room, balcony where Martin Luther King, Jr. was shot & killed."
My sister & the kids reenacting the shooting scene.
"The Lorraine Motel/Natl Civil Rights Museum"
This lady has been boycotting the museum for like 8,000 days, literally! She believes MLK would've wanted it to be used for better purposes, like outreach, etc.
Educate Yourselves.
Happy Black History Month.
Its America's hiSTORY!
~S. Parks
Think about that for a moment...can you imagine dedicating your entire existence to assure that not even you, maybe not even your children but the future children, maybe your great grands & their generation have a better life. Can you imagine that, that's like totally insane! No? You suffer. You fight. You die. All in the name of justice, freedom, equality...for the future!!! AMAZING! I can't even express in words how that affects my mind, my soul.
I mean I don't really like talking about all the different things that have happened to the black community, just b/c I can't really handle it w/o getting angry. I haven't really experienced blatant racism in my life, so I have little to compare anything to, but I think its important for young Black America to remain abreast of their history, not just to avoid repeating the past but for a clear sense of self. That knowledge can enable us to be a better people. To pattern those before us, to create a better future for ourselves and those to come. Its imperative. Its critical! Its life saving.
I have always thought about how I my life can be a vessel, a model, for my peers, for the younger generation. I would hate for the work of my immediate ancestors, grandparents, parents even to be a waste b/c I chose not to be to carry out their efforts. That is a huge fear of mine.
So...I try not get so full of myself. Which is why I took a trip to the National Civil Rights Museum this week. I learned SO much...I needed like a whole day though...so I will definitely return, maybe next Monday. It is truly amazing to know I come from such greatness. I don't think people understand that struggle=character=GREATNESS! Those people who sacrificed their lives for you & me, gave us definition, which is why we MUST read...to know who we are, where we come from, what we're capable of doing. Look @ how far God has brought us as a people...from being classified as less than a person to a presidential hopeful...WOW!!! AWESOME!!!
Here's a few pictures from the Museum (that I wasn't supposed to take, but I couldn't resist...so enjoy & be inspired!)...
"WHITE ONLY" (Backwards)
"3/5 of a Man"
Conversation between Mrs. Corretta Scott King & Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., 4/16/63, while he was in jail.
Malcolm the Great!!!
Sonia Sanchez on Bro. Malcolm.
They died for us to vote...so VOTE!!!
"Black Panther Party"
"The room, balcony where Martin Luther King, Jr. was shot & killed."
My sister & the kids reenacting the shooting scene.
"The Lorraine Motel/Natl Civil Rights Museum"
This lady has been boycotting the museum for like 8,000 days, literally! She believes MLK would've wanted it to be used for better purposes, like outreach, etc.
Educate Yourselves.
Happy Black History Month.
Its America's hiSTORY!
~S. Parks
Sunday, December 9, 2007
Ice Princess
Doesn’t every girl dream of being a "little princess" or @ least treated like one? Of course they do…and I am no exception…in fact in my mind I am a "little princess." So…yeah I’m a princess @ 24…a princess w/an “icebox where my heart used to be.”
Who’s fault is that? Could be the ex’s…could be Jack’s…could be my daddy…could be my own doing. I’m 24 though, so the blame game is a little cheesy!
First step: Recognition.
Second step: Admission.
I Recognize.
I Admit.
I’m an asshole…problem is…I don’t mind being an asshole. I’ve convinced myself that people are fickle. Flaky. They will hurt you @ some point. So I’m over it before it happens. Ironic b/c I’m the person whose always wanting the best for other people i.e. my friends & family…I never seem to hold myself in that same regard. Though my biggest want in life is to be happy. Seems to be that I am sabotaging any opportunities for happiness.
Why? Maybe I think I don’t deserve happiness. Maybe I think it doesn’t really exist. Maybe I don’t even know what it is. Maybe I’m afraid of being happy. Maybe I’m afraid of being happy then returning to unhappiness. All these maybes. I don’t know. I do know that I need to GIT & fast before I definitely miss out on something great or ruin my chances for happiness!
I.E. “2nd Chance”
I’ve basically forced “2nd Chance” to be in an open relationship. He couldn’t understand why. Says he doesn’t want anyone else. He’s with who he wants. “Why would I pursue something so diligently to ultimately be w/someone insignificant or do something stupid to jeopardize my pursuit. Makes no sense.” Yeah he’s right & I knew that before I asked him…”are you still talking/seeing other people?” He was taken aback that I would even ask such things. He quickly realized the question wasn’t really about him it was about me. “I realized I’ve forced you into something that you’ve tried your hardest to run away from, but ultimately you made the decision to be w/me…if it's not what you want say so, don’t bullshit me.” “I want it. I do. Now. I just don’t think I can fully commit to you yet. I’m just not ready (I said that about 10x). I don’t want to lose you but I don’t want to hurt you either. I’m just not ready.” (He sighs) Well I appreciate your honesty, but you have to make a decision. I’ve made mine. This about you not us. You don’t trust me. I don’t know what else to do. There is nothing else for me to do, but what I’m doing. I want you Shanette that’s obvious but I’m not going to force you to be with me. Just say the word & I’m gone.” (Now I’m sighing) “No. I just need time.” Him-“well you have until the end of January. I guess this means we’re in an open relationship but I don’t wanna hear shit about what you do w/whomever. I don’t even wanna think about the shit. So you do whatever you need to do to make sure that doesn’t happen (that’s the least you can do). Come February I don’t wanna hear shit else about this. If you still aren’t ready…I’m done Shanette, seriously…no discussions.”
It sounds as bad as it was. I felt pretty bad but I mean I really want to be honest w/him about where I am & how I’m feeling.
Truth is I don’t even understand what I’m feeling. I’m talking to other guys who are like dogshit compared to “2nd Chance” so it's not really another guy. It's me. I’m the problem.
I’m just not ready…to…be…in love…again. The thought of it makes my head hurt…makes me wanna vomit actually. I’m not a very fearful person but I’m really afraid of that. & I know. I know. Things are headed that way & I’m just not ready.
So I occupy my time w/bullshit to mask the real shit. BUT. Reality is: I’m wasting my time. His time. Everybody’s time. Being a little punk. I don’t want to hurt him. Especially over some whack shit.
I really don’t know what my deal is…I’m such an asshole but to the wrong people…well to everyone but not everyone deserves that!
Some kinda way I’ve started to be nicer to people who don’t deserve & I shit on people who deserve my goodness. Don’t know what that’s about…
Imma do better though b/c I should…for my own sake (& “2nd Chance too).
Sidebar: Is it not weird that he keeps giving me chances??? Does that not some suspect to you??? Like why would he allot me more time to make a decision when his whole reasoning for not talking to me that time was b/c he didn’t have any more time to waste on me? I’m probably over-analyzing as usual. I know. But I just think that’s kinda odd…but maybe that’s just me! I mean I know I’d be like “my nigga please” if he hit me w/that shit! Poor “2nd Chance” I don’t even think he really knows WTH he’s getting himself into!
~Shanette
“Basically I’m complicated. I have a hard time taking the easy way…I wouldn’t call it schizophrenia but I’ll be @ least 2 people today!” Gnarls Barkley
Who’s fault is that? Could be the ex’s…could be Jack’s…could be my daddy…could be my own doing. I’m 24 though, so the blame game is a little cheesy!
First step: Recognition.
Second step: Admission.
I Recognize.
I Admit.
I’m an asshole…problem is…I don’t mind being an asshole. I’ve convinced myself that people are fickle. Flaky. They will hurt you @ some point. So I’m over it before it happens. Ironic b/c I’m the person whose always wanting the best for other people i.e. my friends & family…I never seem to hold myself in that same regard. Though my biggest want in life is to be happy. Seems to be that I am sabotaging any opportunities for happiness.
Why? Maybe I think I don’t deserve happiness. Maybe I think it doesn’t really exist. Maybe I don’t even know what it is. Maybe I’m afraid of being happy. Maybe I’m afraid of being happy then returning to unhappiness. All these maybes. I don’t know. I do know that I need to GIT & fast before I definitely miss out on something great or ruin my chances for happiness!
I.E. “2nd Chance”
I’ve basically forced “2nd Chance” to be in an open relationship. He couldn’t understand why. Says he doesn’t want anyone else. He’s with who he wants. “Why would I pursue something so diligently to ultimately be w/someone insignificant or do something stupid to jeopardize my pursuit. Makes no sense.” Yeah he’s right & I knew that before I asked him…”are you still talking/seeing other people?” He was taken aback that I would even ask such things. He quickly realized the question wasn’t really about him it was about me. “I realized I’ve forced you into something that you’ve tried your hardest to run away from, but ultimately you made the decision to be w/me…if it's not what you want say so, don’t bullshit me.” “I want it. I do. Now. I just don’t think I can fully commit to you yet. I’m just not ready (I said that about 10x). I don’t want to lose you but I don’t want to hurt you either. I’m just not ready.” (He sighs) Well I appreciate your honesty, but you have to make a decision. I’ve made mine. This about you not us. You don’t trust me. I don’t know what else to do. There is nothing else for me to do, but what I’m doing. I want you Shanette that’s obvious but I’m not going to force you to be with me. Just say the word & I’m gone.” (Now I’m sighing) “No. I just need time.” Him-“well you have until the end of January. I guess this means we’re in an open relationship but I don’t wanna hear shit about what you do w/whomever. I don’t even wanna think about the shit. So you do whatever you need to do to make sure that doesn’t happen (that’s the least you can do). Come February I don’t wanna hear shit else about this. If you still aren’t ready…I’m done Shanette, seriously…no discussions.”
It sounds as bad as it was. I felt pretty bad but I mean I really want to be honest w/him about where I am & how I’m feeling.
Truth is I don’t even understand what I’m feeling. I’m talking to other guys who are like dogshit compared to “2nd Chance” so it's not really another guy. It's me. I’m the problem.
I’m just not ready…to…be…in love…again. The thought of it makes my head hurt…makes me wanna vomit actually. I’m not a very fearful person but I’m really afraid of that. & I know. I know. Things are headed that way & I’m just not ready.
So I occupy my time w/bullshit to mask the real shit. BUT. Reality is: I’m wasting my time. His time. Everybody’s time. Being a little punk. I don’t want to hurt him. Especially over some whack shit.
I really don’t know what my deal is…I’m such an asshole but to the wrong people…well to everyone but not everyone deserves that!
Some kinda way I’ve started to be nicer to people who don’t deserve & I shit on people who deserve my goodness. Don’t know what that’s about…
Imma do better though b/c I should…for my own sake (& “2nd Chance too).
Sidebar: Is it not weird that he keeps giving me chances??? Does that not some suspect to you??? Like why would he allot me more time to make a decision when his whole reasoning for not talking to me that time was b/c he didn’t have any more time to waste on me? I’m probably over-analyzing as usual. I know. But I just think that’s kinda odd…but maybe that’s just me! I mean I know I’d be like “my nigga please” if he hit me w/that shit! Poor “2nd Chance” I don’t even think he really knows WTH he’s getting himself into!
~Shanette
“Basically I’m complicated. I have a hard time taking the easy way…I wouldn’t call it schizophrenia but I’ll be @ least 2 people today!” Gnarls Barkley
Saturday, October 13, 2007
A Social Experiment
So the yesterday I mentioned pretending...its this new thing I'm trying out.
Is it a crime? You be the judge.
Why?
Cus Moe said I am too tuff right. I never give anybody a chance (boys).
I deserve to be treated well by "no-chance" guys if they're willing. Freebies...gifts, food, trips, stuff<--I like stuff! Though I've just never been that kinda gal-the take stuff from guys that Iun hardly no jus cus. Think I have too much pride or something. Or that just doesn't interest me. But I'm tyring it out...and so far...I must say its going pretty good...not the stuff thing but just the "pretending" in general. Btw-I salute all you hoes (in the nicest way) who can deal w/bullshit niggas to get what you want! You bitches (in the nicest way) should get a medal or some shit...I'll look into that for you.
What?
Pretending is well...everything I'm not. I've always been a real straight up & down type-gal. What you see is what you get. Kinda harsh? Well that's me. SO if you can't deal...by all means don't. Most can't. SO I understand. It ain't easy but its worth it! :D So the idea here is to put all that aside when it comes to boys. Try @ least to not be such a "Meany." I'm really not that bad though. I just don't hardly like nobody & I have a tuff time being fake.
How?
Well. Pretend like I'm interested. Pretend like I care (cus I do NOT). Pretend to be engaged. Just pretend like I'm actually into the person you know...
Who?
SO I've been trying it out on not only new boys but current boys, past boys (the ones I can stand), & even "friend" boys.
I mean everyone wants to feel well...wanted, right? I know I like that "I want" you feeling. SO...I'm sure these boys don't mind @ all. Well...until I don't follow through on majority of the "pretends"...but I try to avoid those @ all cost (running outta stuff though). A lot of the things I've been doing with & for boys I would never do! I mean its kinda cool b/c I'm learning what I really can & can't tolerate. What I like & don't like. That I actually am moving on past "the ex". I'm being more open to new things. Being pleasant isn't so bad. I guess I have to keep in mind though...that this is just all in fun...I hope. I don't wanna hurt anyone...well actually I don't mind hurting them...I just don't want them to hurt ME! I just like to play...I'm still a kid in a grown-up's body...doing grown folk shit when its convenient ; )
So here's to wanting & being wanted...though I don't think Sade meant it in this kinda way...
Until we blog again...
CHEERS Pretenders & all you real hoes-HA!
~Sdotter
Is it a crime? You be the judge.
Why?
Cus Moe said I am too tuff right. I never give anybody a chance (boys).
I deserve to be treated well by "no-chance" guys if they're willing. Freebies...gifts, food, trips, stuff<--I like stuff! Though I've just never been that kinda gal-the take stuff from guys that Iun hardly no jus cus. Think I have too much pride or something. Or that just doesn't interest me. But I'm tyring it out...and so far...I must say its going pretty good...not the stuff thing but just the "pretending" in general. Btw-I salute all you hoes (in the nicest way) who can deal w/bullshit niggas to get what you want! You bitches (in the nicest way) should get a medal or some shit...I'll look into that for you.
What?
Pretending is well...everything I'm not. I've always been a real straight up & down type-gal. What you see is what you get. Kinda harsh? Well that's me. SO if you can't deal...by all means don't. Most can't. SO I understand. It ain't easy but its worth it! :D So the idea here is to put all that aside when it comes to boys. Try @ least to not be such a "Meany." I'm really not that bad though. I just don't hardly like nobody & I have a tuff time being fake.
How?
Well. Pretend like I'm interested. Pretend like I care (cus I do NOT). Pretend to be engaged. Just pretend like I'm actually into the person you know...
Who?
SO I've been trying it out on not only new boys but current boys, past boys (the ones I can stand), & even "friend" boys.
I mean everyone wants to feel well...wanted, right? I know I like that "I want" you feeling. SO...I'm sure these boys don't mind @ all. Well...until I don't follow through on majority of the "pretends"...but I try to avoid those @ all cost (running outta stuff though). A lot of the things I've been doing with & for boys I would never do! I mean its kinda cool b/c I'm learning what I really can & can't tolerate. What I like & don't like. That I actually am moving on past "the ex". I'm being more open to new things. Being pleasant isn't so bad. I guess I have to keep in mind though...that this is just all in fun...I hope. I don't wanna hurt anyone...well actually I don't mind hurting them...I just don't want them to hurt ME! I just like to play...I'm still a kid in a grown-up's body...doing grown folk shit when its convenient ; )
So here's to wanting & being wanted...though I don't think Sade meant it in this kinda way...
Until we blog again...
CHEERS Pretenders & all you real hoes-HA!
~Sdotter
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
The Weekend Wrap-Up...N.O. style!!!
Guess who's bizzack, BITCHES?!
(that's me on the right-btw) Carl Thomas...newly named 'CT the G', for reasons that I choose not to disclose-lol...no its not a big deal-he was on the Steve Harvey morning show (Princess Ash's ashdboo.blogspot.com new fav show) getting pranked....and from what I hear he was going OFF! So in a nutshell that's how he became CT the G! So needless to say that was the highlight of the entire trip, thanks!
It's ME...that's WHO!
So...yep I made it back to the whackness that is the M...still recovering from Essence though...but I thoroughly enjoyed my experience...it had its moments like any other trip...but hey a trip to NOLA is always good for the soul! Although most of the trip was just me and Nic. (BTW-Thanks Moe for ditching me w/yo daughter and her shenanigans by myself!) It was still a good trip overall...we recruited some other party-girls to tag along for the adventures of "S dot and Garnett Townsend!"
Here goes...
Arrival-Thursday...uh...hold on...the days are running together...let me think...okay.
Went to all the damn malls to return stuff & find Nic's final fit...we we're unsuccessful. Chile I was ti'ed...that girl know she can exhaust a mufucka! Gotsdamn! Now I understand how men feel! SHIT! So after that we...damn my memory is really fading...so I guess I'll skip all the damn details and get to the point.
Went to all the damn malls to return stuff & find Nic's final fit...we we're unsuccessful. Chile I was ti'ed...that girl know she can exhaust a mufucka! Gotsdamn! Now I understand how men feel! SHIT! So after that we...damn my memory is really fading...so I guess I'll skip all the damn details and get to the point.
Went to the HOB...
...hadn't been in AGES! It was cool...real cool...VIP...of course. Didn't get too twisted...Raj (the greatest DJ in the world-according to Weezy F. Baby-please say the baby!, and all of the Dillard University community!) was there YAY...We ♥ Raj!
So-after shutting the club down-oh yeah "celebrity" sightings in the club...Rosci from 106 & Park, an N.O. native, and Wendy from ANTM, also an N.O. native...some NFLers and NBA-ballers but I don't recall the names, at the moment. Now back to shutting down the club-we proceed to return to the casino-b/c that bitch was poppin off! Guess who?! The fuck we spot?! Sawry! I'm excited again! Okay guess...can't? Okay I'll give you a hint...Summer Rain! Yep...you got it!
(that's me on the right-btw) Carl Thomas...newly named 'CT the G', for reasons that I choose not to disclose-lol...no its not a big deal-he was on the Steve Harvey morning show (Princess Ash's ashdboo.blogspot.com new fav show) getting pranked....and from what I hear he was going OFF! So in a nutshell that's how he became CT the G! So needless to say that was the highlight of the entire trip, thanks!On to Friday: WOW! The day events are such a blur! Okay went to eat w/Ashley and Marchean-I think that's how you spell his name. Convinced Ash to join us for a night of partying. Went to the mall to make a 2nd attempt @ finding Nic the final fit, also find Ash a fit-and I must say I did a super job, thanks, also I had some items to return as well. Stayed in the mall far too long, but we were all successful in our endeavors-so that supersedes all other details!
Later that night...it was PARTY time! So...this was by far the craziest night!
Later that night...it was PARTY time! So...this was by far the craziest night!
All b/c of Nic and her baby's dad! Oh gosh! Can't you already foresee the trubble that lies ahead! They started beefing right @ club time! Prolonging our appearance...but hey we don't mind we're accustomed to the last minute entry...we prefer it actually! So...we all went to the club and we all got a little tipsy. This night lasted until the morning-mind you we left @ around 1 anyways...clubbed @ about 2-6...made a big ass scene 6-7...ate @ the casino 7-8 A.M.! Yes, yes, good ole N.O.-you just never know what's in store-and I love it-like Jeezy!!!
Now Saturday-we had a special appearance by Hillywood and her Mommy! We of course went back to the mall! BITCH-UGH! This time Hills, Mommy joined us for the adventures...and man did this night lack luster! The highlight of my night was seeing the infamous "Pretty"! Oh how I love thou-not really but you know...infatuation...OMGosh! He seriously makes me act like a freaking kid...all giddy, shy, hot-you know how you get hot when you're nervous, and just off my game homie...but ah its worth it just to catch a glimpse! Its so amazing too how close we'll be...he's eyeballing, shit I'm staring-lol! Yet nothing is ever said : ( well maybe its for the best...my infatuations have not proven to be successful upon communication. Okay anyhow, I done got all off subject! We went to Dreams this night, and mane had to come up off $140 each for V.I.P.! The hell?! Then got in and that shit was just aight. I mena it was too packed=too hott=not fun! We tried to pop a bottle to ease our minds and soothe our spirits, but that bitch was so hott we sweated the shit out 'fore we could drank it! The hell?! So...yeah...then we didn't even stay that long like the HOB! So yeah-we had a good time but not a good time like the previous nights...
On the Sabbath-I chilled out this day...slept just a tad bit longer-for some reason I can't sleep past 12 p.m. so...a little longer was 10 a.m. for me. Went to see Lynn (my older suder-the islander) and the crew @ Voris's (her college homie) house. They were celebrating Jeremiah's (Voris' son) 1st b-day-fun times-ahhh to be a kid again : )
So after that went back to the house...slept...played...went w/Lynn to the daiquiri shop...played so more...slept.
Monday-bounced : ( contemplated really hard on staying though...dayum! I should have!
I fucking HATE this dump!!! YUCK!!! Give us FREE!!! Please Lord!
So that wraps Essence double-0-7...nope I ain't go to naan show-lol-and I'm okay w/that!
Oh! I know I kinda left some holes in there but hey-I can't tell y'all err-damn-thing...just note I had a blast...and if you weren't there...that's yo damn bad...te he he.
I'm blowing this joint...its raining and I'm sleepy...until we blog again...
POB!
~S. Parks
Monday, July 2, 2007
The Weekend Wrap-Up...S dot style
lol...seems like every time I do one of these 'wrap-ups' it's centered around "2nd chance"...NO! Its just that I have NO life in Memphis...outside of work...hence he's been the only exciting thing outside of my routine to 'weekend blog' about...aside from my #1s (Adam and Maddie Mo), whom I ♥ SO much!!! They bring me joy, and they don't even know it...how amazing is that?! I'd give them the world if I could...trust...I'm working on it...they're like my babies, esp. since I'm not having any. I plan to SUPER spoil them w/love, gifts, and anything their little hearts desire...okay that's enuff about them, b/c I could talk about them forEVER!
So Friday, got an early am text : D from "SUPER Second Chance"...lol...saying he'd be in town for the weekend...so clear the calendar...gladly! Um we had lunch Friday. We hooked up that evening-late...just kinda played around for awhile. Aight of course! (insert dramatic music) I wanted to get physical-duh...its what I do! I mean seriously. He's a great guy and I'm super attracted to him, like I really like him..so its only natural that I would want to do that right? I mean I think so...but maybe that's just me.
So...this is really kinda embarrassing. We had sex and again it was like so bad...no seriously it was awful. Okay. The first time was the worst(refer to previous posts...ie..."Too Good to be True")...then it got worse...and this time it was bad. So I guess we're making progress...huh?! Please hold-while I jump for joy!
I mean I have never been so confused in all my life. I really don't know what to do, and its kinda annoying me. So despite my inital rxn...I stayed until the early am...I'm trying to cut back on my nigga-like characteristics....give her hand! Thank yous all around! : )
We chilled Saturday evening, that was fun. Lol-Its so weird...how he's like literally 2 different people in and outside of the bedroom. Its like his confidence goes WAY down! Okay so Saturday we didn't really do much worth telling you w/o me feeling like a lame...so here's something that I thought was so absolutely adorable! Okay so I'm a firm believer in its the little things that really matter...you know. I had to work @ BR on Saturday, and upon arrival one of my associates said "hey I met your boyfriend yesterday, he's a really cool guy." You should have seen my damn face...I was like "ERRR??? I have not a clue what you're talking about. I don't have a boyfriend, and I'm not even really dating anyone...well not anyone that would be so bold as to come in the store and say such things!" My associate was (lol) like "uh, well, you are Shanette, right...I mean he didn't seem like he was joking, he mentioned you and how you're always working." I was like "hell everybody knows that, that's common knowledge!" So needless to say I was stomped for nearly an hour. Then it came to me, "2nd chance"! He did ask me about BR yesterday and buying a tie or something, but I was kinda not paying attention. So when I asked him about it, and told him how confused I was he was like "Thanks for the recommendation. I love my new tie." Lol! Umm ohhhk. I was like "so it was you right?!" He was like, "Everyone else liked my tie too." I was like "Okay. Whatevs. It was you! Moving on..."
Wasn't that cute?! ...okay well I thought so.
..oh WAIT...!
I have another cute thing he did! In one of our past conversations I think I randomly stated how I absolutely hate spending $3.39/day on coffee and like $50/month on toiletries. You know like soap, deodorant, lotion, contact sol'n, detergent, razors...you know...the small but necessary items! So he was like "you're crazy!" I was like no seriously I hate it! He was like "well, you're just wasting energy b/c you need those things, right? Right. So shut up!" LOL! I was like "uh...rrrhhhoook"<---that's my Scooby Doo version of okay. Okay so on to the point...yesterday after work...I had to close-btw-my manager was like "oh yeah Shanette, before I forget, like I was about to do, someone came by and left this for you." "Oooh weee! For me?!" Guess what it was...An envelope w/2 gift cards-Starbucks & Target. After I laughed and blushed for like 2.45 minutes! I was like "OMGosh! How cute is this?! Especially since I need some contact sol'n and detergent right now on today!"
If you could have seen my face I'm sure I looked like a clown, w/my blushing ass-rosey cheeks! LOL! I swear I could NOT stop smiling! My manager said "girl you really smiling have never seen you smile that much! He was cute too-btw!" I was like "I KNOW RIGHT!" I mean really how cute was that?! So needless to say I was SUPER excited...well...until...
I went over and attempted to have 'thank you-I'm super turned-on' sex w/him. I honestly think I get caught up in the rapture that is 2nd chance b/c I literally forgot that he sux (and not literally either-which is a BIG part of the prollum!) in bed! So! Me being me...I tried to work w/it you know...but nope not really working out...I mean we've reached tolerableSo does that mean we're on the road to success? And if so, how long is the gotdamn road???
So after much contemplation and a little self-indulgence-hey a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do ; ) I came up w/the following: either he is (well was) a damn near 30-year old virgin-which would explain a lot, and totally freak me out @ the same time. Or. He's gay-which I would be devastated, not surprised, but extremely hurt! Or He's just not that in to me-now this is the one that I'm least likely to believe...not solely b/c I'm an arrogant asshole, but more so b/c his actions outside of the bedroom tell a different story..but hey I could always be wrong (doubt it). He's a pretty honest person, so...I'm not really sure what to think...but I'm def. thinking! Oh forgot to add he said I'm too aggressive! Me: "WTH?!?! Well yeah, b/c you bitching down, so somebody has to man-up...clearly you are NOT!" <--I didn't actually say that. What I said was this-->"Well, maybe you're too passive, I mean I'm just saying...I've never gotten such feedback." In reply he ignored me...and I inturn said "HUMPH" and scurried on out the door!
I mean I just don't get it-he's such a MAN pre-bedroom then he's like a little boy come bedroom boom-time! WTH?!
Who has the answers??? ...b/c I surely do NOT!
Pretty Cool Guy+SUPER HOTT+Good Job/Awful Sex=WTF?!?!?!?!
I mean this is 2007! There is some shit I just can NOT tolerate!
ARRRGGHHH!!! ...but I never like anyone : (
What is a girl to do?! Dilemma, dilemma!
So...I guess I'll keep riding it out...not really though...more like walking it out...te he he
I'll keep you posted! Of course ; )
Thanks for tuning in...signing off...
POB!!!
~S. Parks
So Friday, got an early am text : D from "SUPER Second Chance"...lol...saying he'd be in town for the weekend...so clear the calendar...gladly! Um we had lunch Friday. We hooked up that evening-late...just kinda played around for awhile. Aight of course! (insert dramatic music) I wanted to get physical-duh...its what I do! I mean seriously. He's a great guy and I'm super attracted to him, like I really like him..so its only natural that I would want to do that right? I mean I think so...but maybe that's just me.
So...this is really kinda embarrassing. We had sex and again it was like so bad...no seriously it was awful. Okay. The first time was the worst(refer to previous posts...ie..."Too Good to be True")...then it got worse...and this time it was bad. So I guess we're making progress...huh?! Please hold-while I jump for joy!
I mean I have never been so confused in all my life. I really don't know what to do, and its kinda annoying me. So despite my inital rxn...I stayed until the early am...I'm trying to cut back on my nigga-like characteristics....give her hand! Thank yous all around! : )
We chilled Saturday evening, that was fun. Lol-Its so weird...how he's like literally 2 different people in and outside of the bedroom. Its like his confidence goes WAY down! Okay so Saturday we didn't really do much worth telling you w/o me feeling like a lame...so here's something that I thought was so absolutely adorable! Okay so I'm a firm believer in its the little things that really matter...you know. I had to work @ BR on Saturday, and upon arrival one of my associates said "hey I met your boyfriend yesterday, he's a really cool guy." You should have seen my damn face...I was like "ERRR??? I have not a clue what you're talking about. I don't have a boyfriend, and I'm not even really dating anyone...well not anyone that would be so bold as to come in the store and say such things!" My associate was (lol) like "uh, well, you are Shanette, right...I mean he didn't seem like he was joking, he mentioned you and how you're always working." I was like "hell everybody knows that, that's common knowledge!" So needless to say I was stomped for nearly an hour. Then it came to me, "2nd chance"! He did ask me about BR yesterday and buying a tie or something, but I was kinda not paying attention. So when I asked him about it, and told him how confused I was he was like "Thanks for the recommendation. I love my new tie." Lol! Umm ohhhk. I was like "so it was you right?!" He was like, "Everyone else liked my tie too." I was like "Okay. Whatevs. It was you! Moving on..."
Wasn't that cute?! ...okay well I thought so.
..oh WAIT...!
I have another cute thing he did! In one of our past conversations I think I randomly stated how I absolutely hate spending $3.39/day on coffee and like $50/month on toiletries. You know like soap, deodorant, lotion, contact sol'n, detergent, razors...you know...the small but necessary items! So he was like "you're crazy!" I was like no seriously I hate it! He was like "well, you're just wasting energy b/c you need those things, right? Right. So shut up!" LOL! I was like "uh...rrrhhhoook"<---that's my Scooby Doo version of okay. Okay so on to the point...yesterday after work...I had to close-btw-my manager was like "oh yeah Shanette, before I forget, like I was about to do, someone came by and left this for you." "Oooh weee! For me?!" Guess what it was...An envelope w/2 gift cards-Starbucks & Target. After I laughed and blushed for like 2.45 minutes! I was like "OMGosh! How cute is this?! Especially since I need some contact sol'n and detergent right now on today!"
If you could have seen my face I'm sure I looked like a clown, w/my blushing ass-rosey cheeks! LOL! I swear I could NOT stop smiling! My manager said "girl you really smiling have never seen you smile that much! He was cute too-btw!" I was like "I KNOW RIGHT!" I mean really how cute was that?! So needless to say I was SUPER excited...well...until...
I went over and attempted to have 'thank you-I'm super turned-on' sex w/him. I honestly think I get caught up in the rapture that is 2nd chance b/c I literally forgot that he sux (and not literally either-which is a BIG part of the prollum!) in bed! So! Me being me...I tried to work w/it you know...but nope not really working out...I mean we've reached tolerableSo does that mean we're on the road to success? And if so, how long is the gotdamn road???
So after much contemplation and a little self-indulgence-hey a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do ; ) I came up w/the following: either he is (well was) a damn near 30-year old virgin-which would explain a lot, and totally freak me out @ the same time. Or. He's gay-which I would be devastated, not surprised, but extremely hurt! Or He's just not that in to me-now this is the one that I'm least likely to believe...not solely b/c I'm an arrogant asshole, but more so b/c his actions outside of the bedroom tell a different story..but hey I could always be wrong (doubt it). He's a pretty honest person, so...I'm not really sure what to think...but I'm def. thinking! Oh forgot to add he said I'm too aggressive! Me: "WTH?!?! Well yeah, b/c you bitching down, so somebody has to man-up...clearly you are NOT!" <--I didn't actually say that. What I said was this-->"Well, maybe you're too passive, I mean I'm just saying...I've never gotten such feedback." In reply he ignored me...and I inturn said "HUMPH" and scurried on out the door!
I mean I just don't get it-he's such a MAN pre-bedroom then he's like a little boy come bedroom boom-time! WTH?!
Who has the answers??? ...b/c I surely do NOT!
Pretty Cool Guy+SUPER HOTT+Good Job/Awful Sex=WTF?!?!?!?!
I mean this is 2007! There is some shit I just can NOT tolerate!
ARRRGGHHH!!! ...but I never like anyone : (
What is a girl to do?! Dilemma, dilemma!
So...I guess I'll keep riding it out...not really though...more like walking it out...te he he
I'll keep you posted! Of course ; )
Thanks for tuning in...signing off...
POB!!!
~S. Parks
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Let's GET IT!!!
(BTW-I ♥ Jeezy<--he is so my fav!!!)
brought to you in part by the entire Young Jeezy movement, thanks!
Saturdays!
Usually laxed days? Not for me.
I had to work Saturday...for DASK!
I know right...the office? On a Saturday? Yep...steady on the grind!
So anywho...as much as I was dreading the whole idea...I had no idea what or should I say who was in store for me on that day.
Her name. Marixa. Cool name huh?! I thought so too after I figured out how to say it correctly!
Anywho, she caught my eye right off.
She's tall, chic, pretty, seemingly intelligent at first conversation, and proved to be that and more as we chatted.
With a brief look into her life, her story, her goals, her attitude. I was engulfed.
I was excited...and we all know it takes a lot to excite me honey, let's just be honest!
She was quite engaging. She was interesting and interested in ME-not like that...just in general.
Most important. Encouraging. Empowering. Clearly Heaven-sent!
I could literally see her power. No bullshit. Have you ever just been around a powerful black woman, who knows their power and is not afraid of it...well that's her.
She told me about her family-can we say inspired?! She's been through quite an ordeal in her short 29 years of living, one that I'm not sure even I could handle so well. I knew then that this was someone I would remain in contact w/outside of today. I was most inspired by her cousin who is currently writing a book, who has been hesitant about writing it for quite some time...she said I reminded her of her-the cousin. I was like "WOW, that is SO awesome b/c I want to be a writer so bad, but I am sincerely afraid...afraid of not knowing what to say, or what people might say or not say, or that I may say something I should not...just discouraging myself basically." I was so happy for the cousin even though I did not know her. I then started to tell her about my (fabulous) blog and how I use it as practice, well not really as practice but just as a way to feel like my voice is out there, and how most of my friends seem to enjoy it, and how that really takes me by surprise. She was like "WHY?!" I was like simply b/c these are just my thoughts, and to find that someone enjoys reading them, learns from them, or is simply entertained by them is quite astonishing to me. She said I don't give myself enough credit. *ding ding ding* "We have a winner, Bob!" WOW-no I do NOT give myself any credit, EVER! Honestly, I don't think I have done anything to deserve credit, you know. Everything I do I feel as though its my job, and I'm just doing it to make others happy...I have no idea what makes me happy, like what really makes me happy. So that statement really hit home for me. I also told her I'm ususally like the steady, grounded, level-headed person who everyone turns to for advice. While I don't mind at all, I lack the ability to see myself in that same light I hold up for my friends to find their way. She said "I'm not following my own advice." I laughed. I said. "My BFF had recently told me the same exact thing, and I kinda brushed it off at the time, but I was like I'm really tired of motivating myself, by myself."
She reminded me God's always with me and he's all the motivation I need. Simply b/c he wants me to have all that I need, want, dream and more. (Which was reiterated at church on Sunday-btw."If your Father (God) is rich, do you think he wants his children not to have what is his, what is rightfully theirs?! Of course he DOES!") Another friend once told me...I am my own worst enemy at times. So I guess that's true. I can be my hardest critic. I am tuffest on myself. I'm not sure why, though...I think it has something to do w/my dad. I'll try working on that though.
"I see opportunity. I'm an opportunist!"
She also reminded me that I offer a service I need to charge for my services, whatever they are, to whoever is in need (no discrimination). Even if they aren't in need they know someone who is! Know what I want. Go for it! Make it happen. Step out of that box. That comfort zone. That 2-week paycheck! (oooh that's a tuffy!)
Faith+Plans+Hustle+Grind=Success, undeniable SUCCESS!
"LET's GET IT!"
Her last statement...if you can see the invisible, you can do the impossible...something she lives by.
Can I see myself writing that book? Yes. Can I see myself happy? Yes. Can I see myself doing whatever the hell it is I want to do, being happy & successful doing so? YES! YES! HELL to the YES!
I appreciate her. I appreciate God for placing us together at that moment for whatever reason. I was/am encouraged. I only hope I left her w/as great an impression as she did me!
I am excited. I am MOTIVATED! I'm back on THE grind. On my S H I T! No more feeling sawry for myself...that's whack anyways! I have to make it happen there are no other options. (yeah sometimes you have to sya those kinds of things to yourself to get you going. you know.)
"You ain't gotta like a nigga just respect my mind, and this how I'm eating now, so respect my grind."
...and I luv it!
Good day, Good people!
~S. Parks
brought to you in part by the entire Young Jeezy movement, thanks!
Saturdays!
Usually laxed days? Not for me.
I had to work Saturday...for DASK!
I know right...the office? On a Saturday? Yep...steady on the grind!
So anywho...as much as I was dreading the whole idea...I had no idea what or should I say who was in store for me on that day.
Her name. Marixa. Cool name huh?! I thought so too after I figured out how to say it correctly!
Anywho, she caught my eye right off.
She's tall, chic, pretty, seemingly intelligent at first conversation, and proved to be that and more as we chatted.
With a brief look into her life, her story, her goals, her attitude. I was engulfed.
I was excited...and we all know it takes a lot to excite me honey, let's just be honest!
She was quite engaging. She was interesting and interested in ME-not like that...just in general.
Most important. Encouraging. Empowering. Clearly Heaven-sent!
I could literally see her power. No bullshit. Have you ever just been around a powerful black woman, who knows their power and is not afraid of it...well that's her.
She told me about her family-can we say inspired?! She's been through quite an ordeal in her short 29 years of living, one that I'm not sure even I could handle so well. I knew then that this was someone I would remain in contact w/outside of today. I was most inspired by her cousin who is currently writing a book, who has been hesitant about writing it for quite some time...she said I reminded her of her-the cousin. I was like "WOW, that is SO awesome b/c I want to be a writer so bad, but I am sincerely afraid...afraid of not knowing what to say, or what people might say or not say, or that I may say something I should not...just discouraging myself basically." I was so happy for the cousin even though I did not know her. I then started to tell her about my (fabulous) blog and how I use it as practice, well not really as practice but just as a way to feel like my voice is out there, and how most of my friends seem to enjoy it, and how that really takes me by surprise. She was like "WHY?!" I was like simply b/c these are just my thoughts, and to find that someone enjoys reading them, learns from them, or is simply entertained by them is quite astonishing to me. She said I don't give myself enough credit. *ding ding ding* "We have a winner, Bob!" WOW-no I do NOT give myself any credit, EVER! Honestly, I don't think I have done anything to deserve credit, you know. Everything I do I feel as though its my job, and I'm just doing it to make others happy...I have no idea what makes me happy, like what really makes me happy. So that statement really hit home for me. I also told her I'm ususally like the steady, grounded, level-headed person who everyone turns to for advice. While I don't mind at all, I lack the ability to see myself in that same light I hold up for my friends to find their way. She said "I'm not following my own advice." I laughed. I said. "My BFF had recently told me the same exact thing, and I kinda brushed it off at the time, but I was like I'm really tired of motivating myself, by myself."
She reminded me God's always with me and he's all the motivation I need. Simply b/c he wants me to have all that I need, want, dream and more. (Which was reiterated at church on Sunday-btw."If your Father (God) is rich, do you think he wants his children not to have what is his, what is rightfully theirs?! Of course he DOES!") Another friend once told me...I am my own worst enemy at times. So I guess that's true. I can be my hardest critic. I am tuffest on myself. I'm not sure why, though...I think it has something to do w/my dad. I'll try working on that though.
"I see opportunity. I'm an opportunist!"
She also reminded me that I offer a service I need to charge for my services, whatever they are, to whoever is in need (no discrimination). Even if they aren't in need they know someone who is! Know what I want. Go for it! Make it happen. Step out of that box. That comfort zone. That 2-week paycheck! (oooh that's a tuffy!)
Faith+Plans+Hustle+Grind=Success, undeniable SUCCESS!
"LET's GET IT!"
Her last statement...if you can see the invisible, you can do the impossible...something she lives by.
Can I see myself writing that book? Yes. Can I see myself happy? Yes. Can I see myself doing whatever the hell it is I want to do, being happy & successful doing so? YES! YES! HELL to the YES!
I appreciate her. I appreciate God for placing us together at that moment for whatever reason. I was/am encouraged. I only hope I left her w/as great an impression as she did me!
I am excited. I am MOTIVATED! I'm back on THE grind. On my S H I T! No more feeling sawry for myself...that's whack anyways! I have to make it happen there are no other options. (yeah sometimes you have to sya those kinds of things to yourself to get you going. you know.)
"You ain't gotta like a nigga just respect my mind, and this how I'm eating now, so respect my grind."
...and I luv it!
Good day, Good people!
~S. Parks
Monday, May 21, 2007
The Weekend Wrap-Up...S dot style
Guess who popped back into town last weekend and this time he neglected to forewarn me @ all period! Come on man, what are you doing...what are we doing???
Okay okay I get you're playing by my rules b/c I think you think that impresses me, but I'm not sure if you're doing it for you or for me...or neither...I mean yeah I told you what pushes me away and I reckon you're being considerate enuff not to do that, so that shows you care...WAIT...stop...yeah over-analyzing again...okay...moving on!
I just randomly (well not so much randomly...but I mean dayum he could have said "hey I'll be in town for the fight this weekend" and I would've replied "coo"...the END!) spotted him on Beale, Friday night...now you know me...hell I faked like I ain't see his ass, shiiiiittt..."I like you but I'm no fool brother...uh unh (you can't tell me nothing)!" So I say to myself...hmm..."what to do, what to do"..mind you I was w/Q ("J.O."), but he is so irrelevant...I'm not even sure why I just mentioned him...like he is so not a threat to anyone (well maybe in one area, *wink*, yeah man he gots you in that area "2nd chance"...sawry...Imma give you 1 more chance like Biggie, shit that's all I can spare, brother) Anywho...so..."2nd chance" spots me...he strolls up like butter and says "wuz hannen girl"..."WHA?! That's ALL you could come up with?! I mean did I miss something?!" He claims he called, but you KNOW Iun hardly believe that shit...I say did you leave a message, did you text...no and no ("you know you don't check vm's")...."well I check texts so tell that shit to the next loser!" He was like well "I apologize and we're here now so what's up, wait you and dude together???" Lol, no really I laughed (well more like chuckled), "um yeah we are, but not like that!" "Oh well like what?" "Like nothing, hell he here, I'm here, you here, errbody here, so...lets move on"-lol! So I chucked Q the deuce (btw I think he was lil po'ed, but hey me no care), I mean hell we met each other down there, so I'm saying bruh, chill OUT!
So we hung out for a lil while; I can't hardly deal w/large Memphis crowds too long...sawry! So I bounced...he was w/his homeboys so I didn't wanna cause no prollums! We hooked up briefly Sunday for brunch, it was cool....the end!
Nothing major...I'm back to chill mode w/him, and I'm glad..no awkwardness, no weirdness, no harshness or unnecessary sarcasms (I mean outside of my normalcy). So all in all it was good, aside from the minor, initial hurdle. But it was no biggie, I mean I've learned to not sweat the small stuff @ least pertaining to men...something new I'm trying out...maybe if I don't bitch them out, interrogate them, or give them an unnecessarily hard time they won't eff up as often...they (hopefully) will enjoy their freedom respectfully, still feel like a man, and YAY, we all win! Besides, he's NOT my man, anyways, so I have no rank, no pull, no clout...so hey what is the point in throwing a fit??? Just to show I can? Too much time! Too much energy! In the end...he prolly still won't get it...I mean its a fact "Men are just plain dumb!" I mean, no like really, they don't think so analytically, intuitively, and/or rationally like women...bottom line! So just like they think they are catering to our needs by being sensitive to our high-emotional state, trust we are catering to yours by acting like we're not as smart when we're really just dumbing down to not bruise your lil ego b/c of your lack of mental state (get on my level, hoe-lol!!!).
So that was my weekend...and trust me that was BIG shit...my life is so mundane man, you could clock that it! But oh just wait...next weekend is MIA and the following is NOLA!!! HA HA snitches, what you know about that?!
Uh Unh, YOU can't tell ME NOTHING!!!
I mean really am I not the best thing since Jesus, okay @ least since the first Micheal Jordan comeback...remember that shit, I swear errbody was all geeked up!
Took a sigh of relief, like "ahhh everything in the world is right again!" Yup...that's ME...and I can do that for you, if you just give in and lemme have your soul ; ) stop frontin, Pharrell, you know you wanna!
and on that note I'm out!
Good day, good people
~S.
Okay okay I get you're playing by my rules b/c I think you think that impresses me, but I'm not sure if you're doing it for you or for me...or neither...I mean yeah I told you what pushes me away and I reckon you're being considerate enuff not to do that, so that shows you care...WAIT...stop...yeah over-analyzing again...okay...moving on!
I just randomly (well not so much randomly...but I mean dayum he could have said "hey I'll be in town for the fight this weekend" and I would've replied "coo"...the END!) spotted him on Beale, Friday night...now you know me...hell I faked like I ain't see his ass, shiiiiittt..."I like you but I'm no fool brother...uh unh (you can't tell me nothing)!" So I say to myself...hmm..."what to do, what to do"..mind you I was w/Q ("J.O."), but he is so irrelevant...I'm not even sure why I just mentioned him...like he is so not a threat to anyone (well maybe in one area, *wink*, yeah man he gots you in that area "2nd chance"...sawry...Imma give you 1 more chance like Biggie, shit that's all I can spare, brother) Anywho...so..."2nd chance" spots me...he strolls up like butter and says "wuz hannen girl"..."WHA?! That's ALL you could come up with?! I mean did I miss something?!" He claims he called, but you KNOW Iun hardly believe that shit...I say did you leave a message, did you text...no and no ("you know you don't check vm's")...."well I check texts so tell that shit to the next loser!" He was like well "I apologize and we're here now so what's up, wait you and dude together???" Lol, no really I laughed (well more like chuckled), "um yeah we are, but not like that!" "Oh well like what?" "Like nothing, hell he here, I'm here, you here, errbody here, so...lets move on"-lol! So I chucked Q the deuce (btw I think he was lil po'ed, but hey me no care), I mean hell we met each other down there, so I'm saying bruh, chill OUT!
So we hung out for a lil while; I can't hardly deal w/large Memphis crowds too long...sawry! So I bounced...he was w/his homeboys so I didn't wanna cause no prollums! We hooked up briefly Sunday for brunch, it was cool....the end!
Nothing major...I'm back to chill mode w/him, and I'm glad..no awkwardness, no weirdness, no harshness or unnecessary sarcasms (I mean outside of my normalcy). So all in all it was good, aside from the minor, initial hurdle. But it was no biggie, I mean I've learned to not sweat the small stuff @ least pertaining to men...something new I'm trying out...maybe if I don't bitch them out, interrogate them, or give them an unnecessarily hard time they won't eff up as often...they (hopefully) will enjoy their freedom respectfully, still feel like a man, and YAY, we all win! Besides, he's NOT my man, anyways, so I have no rank, no pull, no clout...so hey what is the point in throwing a fit??? Just to show I can? Too much time! Too much energy! In the end...he prolly still won't get it...I mean its a fact "Men are just plain dumb!" I mean, no like really, they don't think so analytically, intuitively, and/or rationally like women...bottom line! So just like they think they are catering to our needs by being sensitive to our high-emotional state, trust we are catering to yours by acting like we're not as smart when we're really just dumbing down to not bruise your lil ego b/c of your lack of mental state (get on my level, hoe-lol!!!).
So that was my weekend...and trust me that was BIG shit...my life is so mundane man, you could clock that it! But oh just wait...next weekend is MIA and the following is NOLA!!! HA HA snitches, what you know about that?!
Uh Unh, YOU can't tell ME NOTHING!!!
I mean really am I not the best thing since Jesus, okay @ least since the first Micheal Jordan comeback...remember that shit, I swear errbody was all geeked up!
Took a sigh of relief, like "ahhh everything in the world is right again!" Yup...that's ME...and I can do that for you, if you just give in and lemme have your soul ; ) stop frontin, Pharrell, you know you wanna!
and on that note I'm out!
Good day, good people
~S.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
What IS It?!?!
(this post is brought to you in part by Lil Webbie's "What Is It" from the Savage Life album)
I mean is it just me or are niggas acting so extra gay these days! Not like "my wrist broke" gay but like a female gay...like extra sensitive, emotional, and needy?! Ummm excuse me I thought that was my job, sir...hell now what am I supposed to be doing? Oh I know...being a nigga...ugh, whatev!
I mean What iz it?!
So this is what I'm saying...In recent months, in my dealings with the opposite sex, I have been finding that they are "catching feelings" rather fast or better yet doing that comeback shit. Lemme just take a moment to address this shit called "the comeback!" Which is when a nigga has decided to leave, split, cheat, move on, get married, become gay (not that has happened to me, but hey this is 2007 and that shit is quite likely to happen in my lifetime), basically an abrupt exit in turn leaving the woman in a confused state of disarray, and returning like didn't shit happen...and I ask yet again my nigga "Iz you rollin?!"
Like that shit is SO NOT haute, bruh! Girls, okay WOMEN, don't like that shit @ all...well hell I know I don't! I mean why the fuck would I want you constantly popping up in my life, whenev the hell you feel like it...as if I'm just your lil puppy dog or some shit that you pet on occasion!
Naw naw, you gots to fall back, better yet fall OFF, a damn cliff w/that shit! I mean not only does that make me feel I have NO control but it makes me think you have not a fucking clue, or maybe you think I don't have a clue.
Well the shit stops TODAY!!!
I mean sure I'm ALL that...whatever THAT is...wouldn't you like to know...or in this case wouldn't you like to know AGAIN! Well keep reminiscing like Bilal, bruh, cus the shit ain't hannen! Keep it moving lil doggies!!! Keep it moving!!!
Tell it to ya wife...HA...dumbass!!! I'm just saying..."WHY is she here Ike?!"
So back to the new edition dudes who are catching feelings so extra quick...fallin all in love and shit...boy yun even know me, shit yun know love either! Fall back! If that is your tactic of mind-control try it out on the next fool, b/c this one here ain't biting! I'm not impressed...takes a lot to impress me and that shit is not on the "Impress Me List"!!! I don't need anybody selling me the dream, hell I have a hard enuff time deciphering my on damn dreams let lone the ones you tryna sell. So keep on selling b/c I ain't buying my nigga!
So to all you ex's, former "lil boos", friends, j.o.'s (jump-offs), etc. find someone else to pop up on b/c I'm over it!
and on that note...I'm out!
Good day, good folks!
BTW, I actually created this post back in April...just now finishing it...so it doesn't apply to "2nd chance" ; ) my boo...oooh wee!!!
I mean is it just me or are niggas acting so extra gay these days! Not like "my wrist broke" gay but like a female gay...like extra sensitive, emotional, and needy?! Ummm excuse me I thought that was my job, sir...hell now what am I supposed to be doing? Oh I know...being a nigga...ugh, whatev!
I mean What iz it?!
So this is what I'm saying...In recent months, in my dealings with the opposite sex, I have been finding that they are "catching feelings" rather fast or better yet doing that comeback shit. Lemme just take a moment to address this shit called "the comeback!" Which is when a nigga has decided to leave, split, cheat, move on, get married, become gay (not that has happened to me, but hey this is 2007 and that shit is quite likely to happen in my lifetime), basically an abrupt exit in turn leaving the woman in a confused state of disarray, and returning like didn't shit happen...and I ask yet again my nigga "Iz you rollin?!"
Like that shit is SO NOT haute, bruh! Girls, okay WOMEN, don't like that shit @ all...well hell I know I don't! I mean why the fuck would I want you constantly popping up in my life, whenev the hell you feel like it...as if I'm just your lil puppy dog or some shit that you pet on occasion!
Naw naw, you gots to fall back, better yet fall OFF, a damn cliff w/that shit! I mean not only does that make me feel I have NO control but it makes me think you have not a fucking clue, or maybe you think I don't have a clue.
Well the shit stops TODAY!!!
I mean sure I'm ALL that...whatever THAT is...wouldn't you like to know...or in this case wouldn't you like to know AGAIN! Well keep reminiscing like Bilal, bruh, cus the shit ain't hannen! Keep it moving lil doggies!!! Keep it moving!!!
Tell it to ya wife...HA...dumbass!!! I'm just saying..."WHY is she here Ike?!"
So back to the new edition dudes who are catching feelings so extra quick...fallin all in love and shit...boy yun even know me, shit yun know love either! Fall back! If that is your tactic of mind-control try it out on the next fool, b/c this one here ain't biting! I'm not impressed...takes a lot to impress me and that shit is not on the "Impress Me List"!!! I don't need anybody selling me the dream, hell I have a hard enuff time deciphering my on damn dreams let lone the ones you tryna sell. So keep on selling b/c I ain't buying my nigga!
So to all you ex's, former "lil boos", friends, j.o.'s (jump-offs), etc. find someone else to pop up on b/c I'm over it!
and on that note...I'm out!
Good day, good folks!
BTW, I actually created this post back in April...just now finishing it...so it doesn't apply to "2nd chance" ; ) my boo...oooh wee!!!
Monday, April 30, 2007
Too good to be true!
ARRGGH!
This is why I did not want to talk about the likes of "2nd chance" so enthusiastically!
So Day 2 of the " "2nd chance" pops into town on business extravaganza" weekend continues...anxiously! So this day picks up rather late in the evening resulting in an, "out of control" drunken state (can we say EMBARASSING) after hanging around Beale (St.) for an hour or so…maybe e'en 2. Concluding w/ in the inevitable…back to the tel (he was trying to be a gentleman) to chill out for a few.
Of course, as Bets would say, "Queen Fornicator" <--that's me, could not control her hormones and forced herself upon "2nd chance" w/o hesitation. Now I will say he did try to fight me off, but I just wasn't having it…come on now… "No means YES and YES means YES!" So after much ado he caved…
For once I don't want to share the intimate details of the evening w/myself let 'lone anyone else…b/c that shit was AWFUL and I'm sad about it (no like really I am, not being an asshole either)…I think it was partially my fault…I know I can be an even bigger bitch when I don't get what I want when I want + alcohol=RUDE, CRASS, and Out of Control on top of the bitchiness!
However, does that excuse the fact that sex was bad?! Was that all my imagination?! Was I that drunk?! Did I kill the mood?! Am I too ruff?! Do I have intimacy issues?! Do we lack sexual chemistry?! Did he really NOT want to have sex w/me?! Bottom line: Am I the prollum?! ME?! Hells no…couldn't be...more like the answer bitches! Bad sex is just bad sex man! I mean that shit was like the worst. Actually I have never really had bad sex per say, so I'm not really basing this on much. However I know there is a standard and that shit was WAAAAAAY below par!
Here's the dilemma…under normal circumstances I would have copped a bitch fit, hopped up and bounced out…BUT (yeah all caps)…I like him! Like I was saying before, the "I like you" feeling does not come along often in my life so I'm trying to take advantage while I still can (see... "Go me" trying to do better…YAY!) Aight now, after trying to take control of a quickly dwindling evening (which still failed btw) I still left I just tried to remain a little less rude, and be a little more considerate. Next day…I didn't want to chat like regular…he didn't call so I was fine w/that, the text game worked well. Today however I know a phone call will be involved. I will stubbornly apologize for my behavior and attempt to address the other matter w/caution. I am hoping he mentions it first so that I won't continue to seem like the over-bearing, control freak that I am. Hopefully it goes well, we agree, and move on.
While I try to put that horrendous experience out of mind, I will still be thinking "but is the sex bad though" I mean b/c I'm just saying …Iunno…Iun just know…come on nay…let's be REAL…like or no like...bad sex is bad sex man...I mean I'm just saying… guess we shall see...umph!
Good luck w/that shit, Shanette!-lol
And on that note…I'm out…
BTW I soooo cannot believe I was trying to have relations w/a new guy w/o getting the self-beautification rituals (mani/pedi, waxing, etc…come on SHANETTE…get it together girl…you better hope this ni99a still talking to you while you talking shit about bad sex, hell!)
POB!
~S. Parks
This is why I did not want to talk about the likes of "2nd chance" so enthusiastically!
So Day 2 of the " "2nd chance" pops into town on business extravaganza" weekend continues...anxiously! So this day picks up rather late in the evening resulting in an, "out of control" drunken state (can we say EMBARASSING) after hanging around Beale (St.) for an hour or so…maybe e'en 2. Concluding w/ in the inevitable…back to the tel (he was trying to be a gentleman) to chill out for a few.
Of course, as Bets would say, "Queen Fornicator" <--that's me, could not control her hormones and forced herself upon "2nd chance" w/o hesitation. Now I will say he did try to fight me off, but I just wasn't having it…come on now… "No means YES and YES means YES!" So after much ado he caved…
For once I don't want to share the intimate details of the evening w/myself let 'lone anyone else…b/c that shit was AWFUL and I'm sad about it (no like really I am, not being an asshole either)…I think it was partially my fault…I know I can be an even bigger bitch when I don't get what I want when I want + alcohol=RUDE, CRASS, and Out of Control on top of the bitchiness!
However, does that excuse the fact that sex was bad?! Was that all my imagination?! Was I that drunk?! Did I kill the mood?! Am I too ruff?! Do I have intimacy issues?! Do we lack sexual chemistry?! Did he really NOT want to have sex w/me?! Bottom line: Am I the prollum?! ME?! Hells no…couldn't be...more like the answer bitches! Bad sex is just bad sex man! I mean that shit was like the worst. Actually I have never really had bad sex per say, so I'm not really basing this on much. However I know there is a standard and that shit was WAAAAAAY below par!
Here's the dilemma…under normal circumstances I would have copped a bitch fit, hopped up and bounced out…BUT (yeah all caps)…I like him! Like I was saying before, the "I like you" feeling does not come along often in my life so I'm trying to take advantage while I still can (see... "Go me" trying to do better…YAY!) Aight now, after trying to take control of a quickly dwindling evening (which still failed btw) I still left I just tried to remain a little less rude, and be a little more considerate. Next day…I didn't want to chat like regular…he didn't call so I was fine w/that, the text game worked well. Today however I know a phone call will be involved. I will stubbornly apologize for my behavior and attempt to address the other matter w/caution. I am hoping he mentions it first so that I won't continue to seem like the over-bearing, control freak that I am. Hopefully it goes well, we agree, and move on.
While I try to put that horrendous experience out of mind, I will still be thinking "but is the sex bad though" I mean b/c I'm just saying …Iunno…Iun just know…come on nay…let's be REAL…like or no like...bad sex is bad sex man...I mean I'm just saying… guess we shall see...umph!
Good luck w/that shit, Shanette!-lol
And on that note…I'm out…
BTW I soooo cannot believe I was trying to have relations w/a new guy w/o getting the self-beautification rituals (mani/pedi, waxing, etc…come on SHANETTE…get it together girl…you better hope this ni99a still talking to you while you talking shit about bad sex, hell!)
POB!
~S. Parks
Saturday, April 28, 2007
ICE COLD!!!
(shakes head)...man this scene looks all too familiar...good guy, great girl, best date...don't fall for it Shanette you can't fall for it!
Okay so here's the deal..."2nd chance" came into town this weekend.We hung out all evening pretty much and I must say it has been a really LONG time since I have had like a real date and it actually went well. I was like so comfortable with him and this was really our first time hanging out since we met several months ago. I keep wanting to say he's perfect but I know it’s too soon to say such things, I have made that mistake before...and what's the point of making the mistakes if I'm not learning anything.
Anyways...we had sushi, hung out downtown, had some coffee, and chilled @ the tel...that was a wrap. I loved the fact that there was no pressure. I love how funny he is, and how he already knows how to "deal" w/me (b/c we know I'm a tuff cookie). I like how he is just the right balance of touchy feely. I like how he takes charge but lets me think I'm ultimately still running the show (yes I need that control). I like how he's a gentleman but not so much that I want to barf. I like how when we aren't talking, it’s okay silence not that awkward silence that causes you to think and say something dumb or embarrassing. I like how he doesn't take me too seriously which in turn helps me not to take me too seriously. Oh gosh I sound so "white girl" movie-ish...don't fall for it, you can't fall for it! ICE COLD!!!
"I am afraid b/c I have no fear" (Gnarls B. said that btw). I am just that comfortable with him and I don't want to talk about it too much w/my friends (as if I would do that anyway) b/c I just don't want to make a bigger deal about it than it is. You know it’s hard to stay in that "lets get to know each other" phase. I kinda wanna stay here for as long as I can b/c things are going so well. I know if I try to bring sex into the picture that it will only complicate things. We like haven't even really talked about sex that much and I'm okay w/that...surprisingly! For some reason, I'm not real anxious as I would be under normal circumstances, to physically attack him...I think that means I REALLY like him...WOWZER! (Yeah I like I just drew that conclusion) I have not "liked" anyone like this in a really long time! Its fun! (Don’t fall for it, you can't fall for it!) ICE COLD!!!
AAARRRGHHHH!!! He's just soooo great I swear, he's like kinda not my type *whatever that is* and that's what makes it so funny. I usually like more of the "rougher edge" guy and he's really far from that. I mean he's not a punk or anything but he's just not my regular style. He's more laid back, and he doesn't let "me" get to him (which I could see being a prollum later but we won't discuss that now). He's also REAL lame, lol. I am so anti-lame guy, like really...I don’t like them @ all...but he's a cool lame kinda like Ye (that's Kanye West for all you non hip-hoppers out there), and y'all know I lubs Ye...he's so funny, so genius, so the truth and so very lame...and that too is "2nd chance!"
Wow!!!
Look @ Shanette...come on guys lets give her a round of applause...why you ask...well here's a list: Shanette is:
1) opening herself to the dating world again, not just using guys for sex but actually treating them w/a little respect.
2) Stepping out of here comfort zone<---a BIG deal!!!
3) Having lots of fun doing the above!!!
4) Just excited about being excited!
5) Looking forward to the future...whatever it may be I know it will be AWESOME!
Oh lawd...I'm making my own self sick...don't fall for it, you can’t fall for it...ICE COLD!!!
So...he's here one more night and I can't wait to see him again : D YAY!!!
He's becoming one of my favorite things! *DON'T FALL FOR IT, YOU CAN'T FALL FOR IT. ICE COLD!!!
(but what if, what if, what if...he's the 1...aww hell naw bitch he ain't that cool...we have already done the "prototype" shit and you see where that got you...snap snap snap out of it!)
She was cold as ICE (Rick James)!
...and on that note...
POB!
~S. Parks
Okay so here's the deal..."2nd chance" came into town this weekend.We hung out all evening pretty much and I must say it has been a really LONG time since I have had like a real date and it actually went well. I was like so comfortable with him and this was really our first time hanging out since we met several months ago. I keep wanting to say he's perfect but I know it’s too soon to say such things, I have made that mistake before...and what's the point of making the mistakes if I'm not learning anything.
Anyways...we had sushi, hung out downtown, had some coffee, and chilled @ the tel...that was a wrap. I loved the fact that there was no pressure. I love how funny he is, and how he already knows how to "deal" w/me (b/c we know I'm a tuff cookie). I like how he is just the right balance of touchy feely. I like how he takes charge but lets me think I'm ultimately still running the show (yes I need that control). I like how he's a gentleman but not so much that I want to barf. I like how when we aren't talking, it’s okay silence not that awkward silence that causes you to think and say something dumb or embarrassing. I like how he doesn't take me too seriously which in turn helps me not to take me too seriously. Oh gosh I sound so "white girl" movie-ish...don't fall for it, you can't fall for it! ICE COLD!!!
"I am afraid b/c I have no fear" (Gnarls B. said that btw). I am just that comfortable with him and I don't want to talk about it too much w/my friends (as if I would do that anyway) b/c I just don't want to make a bigger deal about it than it is. You know it’s hard to stay in that "lets get to know each other" phase. I kinda wanna stay here for as long as I can b/c things are going so well. I know if I try to bring sex into the picture that it will only complicate things. We like haven't even really talked about sex that much and I'm okay w/that...surprisingly! For some reason, I'm not real anxious as I would be under normal circumstances, to physically attack him...I think that means I REALLY like him...WOWZER! (Yeah I like I just drew that conclusion) I have not "liked" anyone like this in a really long time! Its fun! (Don’t fall for it, you can't fall for it!) ICE COLD!!!
AAARRRGHHHH!!! He's just soooo great I swear, he's like kinda not my type *whatever that is* and that's what makes it so funny. I usually like more of the "rougher edge" guy and he's really far from that. I mean he's not a punk or anything but he's just not my regular style. He's more laid back, and he doesn't let "me" get to him (which I could see being a prollum later but we won't discuss that now). He's also REAL lame, lol. I am so anti-lame guy, like really...I don’t like them @ all...but he's a cool lame kinda like Ye (that's Kanye West for all you non hip-hoppers out there), and y'all know I lubs Ye...he's so funny, so genius, so the truth and so very lame...and that too is "2nd chance!"
Wow!!!
Look @ Shanette...come on guys lets give her a round of applause...why you ask...well here's a list: Shanette is:
1) opening herself to the dating world again, not just using guys for sex but actually treating them w/a little respect.
2) Stepping out of here comfort zone<---a BIG deal!!!
3) Having lots of fun doing the above!!!
4) Just excited about being excited!
5) Looking forward to the future...whatever it may be I know it will be AWESOME!
Oh lawd...I'm making my own self sick...don't fall for it, you can’t fall for it...ICE COLD!!!
So...he's here one more night and I can't wait to see him again : D YAY!!!
He's becoming one of my favorite things! *DON'T FALL FOR IT, YOU CAN'T FALL FOR IT. ICE COLD!!!
(but what if, what if, what if...he's the 1...aww hell naw bitch he ain't that cool...we have already done the "prototype" shit and you see where that got you...snap snap snap out of it!)
She was cold as ICE (Rick James)!
...and on that note...
POB!
~S. Parks
Thursday, April 19, 2007
GAME OVER!
Yeah yeah, I know it has not been 2 weeks but shit I'm tired of playing.
I have never been BIG on games, especially when it comes to matters of the heart...that shit is whack!
So anyways here is how everything went down: First of all let me say I have talked to this young man only like twice since we started this shit...now what the hell kinda game is he playing?! So! Hells I don't care, shit I don't even like talking on the phone! Here are his reasons for not calling as often: "well you said you don't like feeling pressured and obligated when in a relationship, you also said it makes you want to rebel, so I did not want to give you an excuse to do something bad." I was thinking "my nigga please, you think you are so clever, lol, yunno me nigga!"
So anyways...we talked Monday night after I returned from my trip. So he basically asked indirectly was I on my best behavior, and you know I told you I wouldn't lie (lying is for bitches anyways)...so I was like well you know...My nigga was like naw Iunno that's why I'm asking. LOL! I was like well...no I wasn't. My nigga was just like umph and went on to the next subject...so I was like cool.
Fast forward to today: He calls I no answer, he calls back, and leaves a message...now let me tell y'all something about me: I do NOT check voicemail (uh uh, no thanks). So then I text and was like what's up w/this vm you left, you know I don't check em...why my nigga tell me I was a scared little girl, who needs to get her shit together, ASAP, before I miss out on the best thing since Jesus (why is you stealing my line sir?!). After I wiped the shock off my face, stopped laughing, and calmed down. I called him asking for an explanation. He was like "how could you not adhere to 14 days, that's just being a punk," blah blah blah. I was like my nigga you is killing me w/the psycho-analysis. He was like "yeah I know you don't want to hear it but somebody needs to tell your ass that being a dog, with a capital d (I laughed internally) is not cool at all, you're a female and you should act as such." I was like WHAT sir?! What is you saying?! He was like "I just said it"...I'm like "yeah you talking but I ain't heard shit!" So that drove him...my nigga kinda went off (which I must admit made me kinda hott, lol).
Anywho getting to the point, here is the bottom line...he was like I was really feeling you, but when you told me about your past history that turned me off b/c I like humble women (whatever the fuck that shit means) and "I am afraid of how you could hurt me" (and I'm thinking how the fuck do I know you won't hurt me hell), "however I am even more afraid of not taking that chance" [oh lord don't get soft on me now (no pun intended)]. So my rebuttal was this: "this is me right now on today in my life, take it or leave it. I cannot promise you that I will or won't do anything for the following reasons: 1) b/c I don't know you well enough to care, 2) simply b/c I don't want to, and 3) I have to be focused to make a commitment and I clearly was not, however I can assure you I won't purposely hurt you", pause, that is such a nigga line, I mean who purposely tries to hurt someone, I mean you know I'm just saying... So anyways I was like "I really like you but you're jeopardizing that by playing games and testing me." So he understood and we moved on UNTIL he so casually said: "I could maybe fall in love with you..."
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
STOP right there my young black brother....my nigga, my nigga, MY NIGGA what is you saying?!?! Thinking to myself: Be cool, be cool, Ice Cold ("The Love Below"), okay GIT Shanette. Me: "Ummmm, what do you mean?" Him: "Oh don't get all bent (he stole that shit from me too!) I am just saying you have the potential, I haven't loved anyone in a long time or even met anyone for that matter, that I felt could bring that out of me, and I can see the possibility of that happening with you, that's ALL I meant." Me: (still need just a wee bit more clarification): soooo you are NOT in love, right?" Him: "Hell to the NAW (okay, STOP thief, he stole that phrase too!) girl now chill out! I am just letting you know how I feel, see you ask for honesty and when you get it you can't handle it! That's what's wrong w/you women!" Me: Phew! Thank the Lord, "Whatever nigga, don't ACT like the shit ain't possible b/c if that's where I wanted you that's where you'd be, but I was about to pull out my receipt and take yo ass back to the mall (you know like Kells, "a dawg on the prowl when I'm walking thru the mall" lol, I like that line)!" Him: (laughs) "Shanette you are by far the weirdest chick I have met thus far, chill out man (clearly his fav thing to say), love is a good thing, you need a little love in your life, that's your problem, you are hard as a rock, but I know the truth, you are just dying to melt that icebox aren't you, and I don't mind helping you do so!" Me: (he's so lame!) "Uh huh you prolly right, but I'm prolly not, at least not today shit nor tomorrow for that matter!" Him: (laughs) "uh huh, keep talking shit." (He said some other stuff that I choose not to include, thanks) Me: "I know ; ) and you lubs it, well no wait...you likes it!" LOL!
So what did we learn today:
1) Shanette is not looking for love, but does that mean she is afraid it...maybe, maybe not.
2) Shanette is not into games!
3) Shanette is so sincere, you should try it out you might like it!
4) Shanette likes HIM, but that's about as far as it goes @ the moment, hell tomorrow I may not even know HIM...I mean I'm just saying man...my ass is unpredictable!
5) Shanette values honesty, however she tells the occassional lie...I mean come on who doesn't?!
6) Shanette does what she wants, when she wants, and how she wants! Now I am not saying that's okay, but I am saying that's me right now on today, @ this time in my life, thanks!
That's all for today folks...I'm beat! Actually this post was supposed to be about something completely different but clearly the Holy Ghost led me in a completely different direction (lol you know how black folks always talking bout the Holy Spirit led them somewhere, girl that was yo ass that led you not no HG, stop using the Lawd for an excuse), so anyways maybe next time...I'll get to what I originally had to say.
Side note: Damn man, may I just say I am by far the horniest person I know, Jesus Christ! I need help! I am in an astronomical amount of pain and all I can think about is getting laid...again, I need help! I surely hope these folk don't be talking about they are limiting my rigorous activity, b/c now is NOT the time for me to be abstinent, NO thanks!
Okay and on that note I'm off...to sleep...alone and horny : ( DAYUM GINA!
Nite & POB!
~S. Parks
(this post was brought to you in part by Lil' Flip)
I have never been BIG on games, especially when it comes to matters of the heart...that shit is whack!
So anyways here is how everything went down: First of all let me say I have talked to this young man only like twice since we started this shit...now what the hell kinda game is he playing?! So! Hells I don't care, shit I don't even like talking on the phone! Here are his reasons for not calling as often: "well you said you don't like feeling pressured and obligated when in a relationship, you also said it makes you want to rebel, so I did not want to give you an excuse to do something bad." I was thinking "my nigga please, you think you are so clever, lol, yunno me nigga!"
So anyways...we talked Monday night after I returned from my trip. So he basically asked indirectly was I on my best behavior, and you know I told you I wouldn't lie (lying is for bitches anyways)...so I was like well you know...My nigga was like naw Iunno that's why I'm asking. LOL! I was like well...no I wasn't. My nigga was just like umph and went on to the next subject...so I was like cool.
Fast forward to today: He calls I no answer, he calls back, and leaves a message...now let me tell y'all something about me: I do NOT check voicemail (uh uh, no thanks). So then I text and was like what's up w/this vm you left, you know I don't check em...why my nigga tell me I was a scared little girl, who needs to get her shit together, ASAP, before I miss out on the best thing since Jesus (why is you stealing my line sir?!). After I wiped the shock off my face, stopped laughing, and calmed down. I called him asking for an explanation. He was like "how could you not adhere to 14 days, that's just being a punk," blah blah blah. I was like my nigga you is killing me w/the psycho-analysis. He was like "yeah I know you don't want to hear it but somebody needs to tell your ass that being a dog, with a capital d (I laughed internally) is not cool at all, you're a female and you should act as such." I was like WHAT sir?! What is you saying?! He was like "I just said it"...I'm like "yeah you talking but I ain't heard shit!" So that drove him...my nigga kinda went off (which I must admit made me kinda hott, lol).
Anywho getting to the point, here is the bottom line...he was like I was really feeling you, but when you told me about your past history that turned me off b/c I like humble women (whatever the fuck that shit means) and "I am afraid of how you could hurt me" (and I'm thinking how the fuck do I know you won't hurt me hell), "however I am even more afraid of not taking that chance" [oh lord don't get soft on me now (no pun intended)]. So my rebuttal was this: "this is me right now on today in my life, take it or leave it. I cannot promise you that I will or won't do anything for the following reasons: 1) b/c I don't know you well enough to care, 2) simply b/c I don't want to, and 3) I have to be focused to make a commitment and I clearly was not, however I can assure you I won't purposely hurt you", pause, that is such a nigga line, I mean who purposely tries to hurt someone, I mean you know I'm just saying... So anyways I was like "I really like you but you're jeopardizing that by playing games and testing me." So he understood and we moved on UNTIL he so casually said: "I could maybe fall in love with you..."
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
STOP right there my young black brother....my nigga, my nigga, MY NIGGA what is you saying?!?! Thinking to myself: Be cool, be cool, Ice Cold ("The Love Below"), okay GIT Shanette. Me: "Ummmm, what do you mean?" Him: "Oh don't get all bent (he stole that shit from me too!) I am just saying you have the potential, I haven't loved anyone in a long time or even met anyone for that matter, that I felt could bring that out of me, and I can see the possibility of that happening with you, that's ALL I meant." Me: (still need just a wee bit more clarification): soooo you are NOT in love, right?" Him: "Hell to the NAW (okay, STOP thief, he stole that phrase too!) girl now chill out! I am just letting you know how I feel, see you ask for honesty and when you get it you can't handle it! That's what's wrong w/you women!" Me: Phew! Thank the Lord, "Whatever nigga, don't ACT like the shit ain't possible b/c if that's where I wanted you that's where you'd be, but I was about to pull out my receipt and take yo ass back to the mall (you know like Kells, "a dawg on the prowl when I'm walking thru the mall" lol, I like that line)!" Him: (laughs) "Shanette you are by far the weirdest chick I have met thus far, chill out man (clearly his fav thing to say), love is a good thing, you need a little love in your life, that's your problem, you are hard as a rock, but I know the truth, you are just dying to melt that icebox aren't you, and I don't mind helping you do so!" Me: (he's so lame!) "Uh huh you prolly right, but I'm prolly not, at least not today shit nor tomorrow for that matter!" Him: (laughs) "uh huh, keep talking shit." (He said some other stuff that I choose not to include, thanks) Me: "I know ; ) and you lubs it, well no wait...you likes it!" LOL!
So what did we learn today:
1) Shanette is not looking for love, but does that mean she is afraid it...maybe, maybe not.
2) Shanette is not into games!
3) Shanette is so sincere, you should try it out you might like it!
4) Shanette likes HIM, but that's about as far as it goes @ the moment, hell tomorrow I may not even know HIM...I mean I'm just saying man...my ass is unpredictable!
5) Shanette values honesty, however she tells the occassional lie...I mean come on who doesn't?!
6) Shanette does what she wants, when she wants, and how she wants! Now I am not saying that's okay, but I am saying that's me right now on today, @ this time in my life, thanks!
That's all for today folks...I'm beat! Actually this post was supposed to be about something completely different but clearly the Holy Ghost led me in a completely different direction (lol you know how black folks always talking bout the Holy Spirit led them somewhere, girl that was yo ass that led you not no HG, stop using the Lawd for an excuse), so anyways maybe next time...I'll get to what I originally had to say.
Side note: Damn man, may I just say I am by far the horniest person I know, Jesus Christ! I need help! I am in an astronomical amount of pain and all I can think about is getting laid...again, I need help! I surely hope these folk don't be talking about they are limiting my rigorous activity, b/c now is NOT the time for me to be abstinent, NO thanks!
Okay and on that note I'm off...to sleep...alone and horny : ( DAYUM GINA!
Nite & POB!
~S. Parks
(this post was brought to you in part by Lil' Flip)
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Update...
ITS JUST A GAME!
Chatting it up w/my homey Boome (or Princess Ash for you bloggers owt there, ashdboo.blogspot.com check her owt if you don't already know!) she had me thinking about some things...like what guy do you know that would play that kind of game for fake or at all, for that matter...and I was like hmmm you're right Boome, this is a bit strange!
So what is he trying to get owt of this whole "game." While I don't know him that well I have come to find that he is very analytical person, hell he's an accountant for god-sake, so you know he fine-tooth combs errthing. So I try to always be on my p's and q's when chatting it up w/him, or so I think, but clearly this game has knocked me back to six!
So I'm thinking that he did in fact mean it as a joke, but is testing my trust-worthiness, and maybe my sincerity. Now who is he to be testing me you ask, NO DAMN BODY, I say, but I do like him, and that shit is RARE, like uh (I am trying to think of some rare species but Iunno so you can insert your own...here), yeah like that! Is he like one of those people who does something to get a rxn owt of you early on to see if you're even worth the trouble...you know?
Now on to Atlanta, what will I do about that...here's the dilemma, which is why I have to take my time and enter a relationship w/sound body and mind, I don't regard him enuff to actually take this thing seriously...did I not just tell him that I am indeed a habitual cheater, therefore in order for me not to cheat I have to actually want (yes I know its bad to only do things b/c you want but hell that's how I operate @ this time in my life, thanks) to commit otherwise, I have lost this game even before beginning. Back to Atlanta so yeah I will carry on in the A as if it were my birthday, HEY! LOL! No but really I will be my regular self, the question is will I be mindful of the "game", the answer is yes, will I adhere is the real question, and the answer is prolly NOT! Why?! Prolly b/c I no wanna!
Its just that simple, I don't want to, so I'm prolly not!
When these 2 weeks are done, I will say yes I was committed to you as much as I could be considering our history, which is short. So I will try not to lie, that's about the best I can do man, shit. I'll keep you posted on my trip (it will be one you won't want to miss the details of) and oh yeah the "GAME" too!
POB for now!
~S. Parks
Chatting it up w/my homey Boome (or Princess Ash for you bloggers owt there, ashdboo.blogspot.com check her owt if you don't already know!) she had me thinking about some things...like what guy do you know that would play that kind of game for fake or at all, for that matter...and I was like hmmm you're right Boome, this is a bit strange!
So what is he trying to get owt of this whole "game." While I don't know him that well I have come to find that he is very analytical person, hell he's an accountant for god-sake, so you know he fine-tooth combs errthing. So I try to always be on my p's and q's when chatting it up w/him, or so I think, but clearly this game has knocked me back to six!
So I'm thinking that he did in fact mean it as a joke, but is testing my trust-worthiness, and maybe my sincerity. Now who is he to be testing me you ask, NO DAMN BODY, I say, but I do like him, and that shit is RARE, like uh (I am trying to think of some rare species but Iunno so you can insert your own...here), yeah like that! Is he like one of those people who does something to get a rxn owt of you early on to see if you're even worth the trouble...you know?
Now on to Atlanta, what will I do about that...here's the dilemma, which is why I have to take my time and enter a relationship w/sound body and mind, I don't regard him enuff to actually take this thing seriously...did I not just tell him that I am indeed a habitual cheater, therefore in order for me not to cheat I have to actually want (yes I know its bad to only do things b/c you want but hell that's how I operate @ this time in my life, thanks) to commit otherwise, I have lost this game even before beginning. Back to Atlanta so yeah I will carry on in the A as if it were my birthday, HEY! LOL! No but really I will be my regular self, the question is will I be mindful of the "game", the answer is yes, will I adhere is the real question, and the answer is prolly NOT! Why?! Prolly b/c I no wanna!
Its just that simple, I don't want to, so I'm prolly not!
When these 2 weeks are done, I will say yes I was committed to you as much as I could be considering our history, which is short. So I will try not to lie, that's about the best I can do man, shit. I'll keep you posted on my trip (it will be one you won't want to miss the details of) and oh yeah the "GAME" too!
POB for now!
~S. Parks
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