According to Oprah's guest Dr. Northrup, on Tuesday's show (not that I watch...but my sister does)...3 great ways for women to get healthy doses of pleasure:
Exercise
Meditation
Sex
"Those things increase beta-endorphin in the brain," Dr. Northrup says. "It's the natural morphine-like substance and you absolutely need it for mood modulation. And if you don't get it naturally through meditation, exercise or sex, you will get it abnormally through drugs and alcohol and sugar. You're going to go for pleasure because your body needs to have pleasure. You need it. But I'd much rather have you get it deliberately in healthy doses."
The show was actually geared towards menopausal women but I realized the things being discussed were vital for women @ any age. Healthy lifestyles. Putting yourself 1st. Acknowledging that you are in fact a person w/feelings not a machine or a robot who cooks, cleans, wifes, mothers, etc...
A lack of focus on yourself can really be detrimental to one's health. Not just women but men as well. Though I focus on women, b/c I am one & b/c women tend to be the more self-less sex. Its just in our nature. We are natural givers...until we've given all we have & there's nothing left. Mind you life is going on. Everyone around you has moved on & in retrospect you're all used up...w/no one to blame but YOU!
I have always been a HUGE giver. BUT. In recent (last 2) years I've been focusing more so on myself. What I like to do. Who I am. Who I want to be. Not (trying @ least) allowing others to interfere w/my happiness. Though people do try whether consciously or sub-consciously...the devil is ALWAYS busy!!!
Anyways, I've been having a ruff past few months w/family, boys & life in general. Wait no. Let me rewind. I no longer allow boys to wreck any flow I have. Why? b/c they just are NOT worth...too many out here & they all dawgs...so I say "fuck it...Imma dawg too! We all dawgs! ROO!!!" Fast Forward. So I've just realized I've once again allowed other people's lives to consume me. Something I vowed I would never do. In 2005, I had a ridiculously "trying" year. Break-ups, Hurricanes, Losses all around. Taught me a lot about relationships, trust, & most importantly ME! In 2006, I made a vow to myself to live for ME...b/c if I don't who will? NO ONE! No one can love me more than ME! (well aside from Jesus)
So as I watched this show. I realized I've gotten away from that. The promise I made w/myself. I know times get tuff & that's okay. I'm fine w/that. However, I'm NOT fine w/self-neglect to the point of breakdown. Though its for a good cause. I'm closely involved w/those I love. I go above & beyond the average person. I actually pride myself on my ability to do so...but there has to be a BALANCE. Key word that most people forget. I'm not a good balancer by far. I spend too much. Save too little. I think too much. Act too little. I give too much. Receive too little. I work too much. Paid too little. There has to be a balance. There will be struggle & pain, but w/confidence you have won even before you have started.
Hence I must get back to the small things that make me happy...just so happens to be exercise, meditation (yoga) & SEX (WOOHOO my fave-YES)! Other stuff too...Starbucks, trips, "new stuff"...otherwise I'm on the brink of losing my mind!!! And we can't have that now can we...esp in October...my birthday month...no indeed!!! ;)
So remember you are the creator of your own destiny...God created us in His image. Hence we already Great we just have to recognize the greatness & maximize its potential. He wants us to be happy so why do we settle for less than??? Well y'all, cus uh...I'm NOT! I don't settle. I don't deal. I do. I make. I am.
"I'm free! Look @ ME! Freedom in high fidelity! FREE!" ~Gnarls Barkley
And on that not my free & happy (& horny) ass is hungry...so I'm blowing!
HOLLA scholars!
~Sdotter
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Dear Kitty Kat,
Why so blue???
Do you really have to ask???
I know. I know. I kinda miss it too.
Kinda?
Okay. Okay. You're right! I'm really a horny fool!
Thought so.
Well what should we do???
WE??? No! YOU! Should stop ackin like we cool! GIT! FAST!!!
Okay! Okay! Sheesh!
~Sdotter the Scorpio
Do you really have to ask???
I know. I know. I kinda miss it too.
Kinda?
Okay. Okay. You're right! I'm really a horny fool!
Thought so.
Well what should we do???
WE??? No! YOU! Should stop ackin like we cool! GIT! FAST!!!
Okay! Okay! Sheesh!
~Sdotter the Scorpio
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Trick Me!
My second reference to Kelis's Tasty. You guys like that album too...as much I did/do? OMGosh! Me & my friend Nic made this vid of her performing to a song from that album. SOOOOOOOOO funny! Classic material, unfortunately Katrina was the cause of destruction for that little piece of history. Oh well...
Anyways.
I really kinda don't wanna talk about this. Haven't actually discussed (in detail) it w/anyone as of yet.
So...basically. I called, on Friday, "2nd chance" after pressures from my friends. We hadn't spoken in about week or so. Not for real. Bullshit texts. Blah e-mails. Awkward conversations. Anyways, back to Friday. I called. To my surprise he didn't answer. Surprising b/c he never not answers. So...I'm like "Ohhhhkay, wth?!" To my surprise & lapse of rationale I left a message..."What is going on MAN? Tired of playing games. We clearly aren't regular. So be a man & say what's on your mind b/c there IS something on your mind, right???" Hung up. Thought to myself, "not so sure that was a good idea, Shanette...no, it was not! Damnit!" I was supposed to be calling to apologize.
So...he calls back..about 6-7 hours later. By this time, I'm rather annoyed not only by him not answering the phone, but his LOOONG ass delay in returning my call. On top of the fact that I've been drinking. Its about 12 am. Here's the conversation:
(Him=2 Me=1)
1:Hello
2: What's up
1: Idunno. You tell me.
2: What was that message about?
1: You KNOW what the message is about.
2: What do you want me to say, Shanette?
1: I want you to say, "shit is cool, we're regular." So that I can stop feeling like we're playing cat & mouse.
2: Well I can't say that b/c I'm NOT regular & shit is NOT cool.
1: Well wtf is the problem???
2: You.
1: Me???!!!
2: Yep. That's it. Just you.
1: Well if I'm the problem why are you even calling me?
2: b/c I'm polite
(Now I'm MAD!)
1: Polite? No, you're a fucking hypocrite! You talk all this shit & you doing something completely different.
2: Of course. Don't take the blame. Place the blame.
1: Fuck you!
2: Yeah. I know. That's your answer for everything! You really need to...
1: Need to what?!
2: Get yo head out yo ass. Stop blaming other people for YOUR flaws. Its YOU! You are YOUR problem! All this bullshit act you put up. I don't have time for that shit. I'm a man. Period. All that other shit you're accustomed to, that wasn't shit! Its not my fault. Its not your fault. Its life. Deal. I'm sick of your bullshit, Shanette. I'm over it. I'm done.
1: .....are you serious??? Like what do you mean you're done?!
2: I mean I'm done. I'm not dealing w/YOU anymore. You're not ready. I'm not going to pressure you. SO I'm done.
1: Fine. Fine! Gotdamnit! FINE! I don't need this shit from you! wtf are you anyways?!
2: Apparently, no one, right?
1: Is this a gotdamn trick?!
2: WHAT are you talking about?! Are you drunk?
1: What?!
2: Have you been drinking?
1: WTF?! Are you kidding me?
2: No, answer the question.
1: I'm not answering shit!
2: I know. Simple question=extra complex non-answer. I don't even know why I bother.
1: Man gtf off my phone w/that shit!
2: Okay, bye.
1: Shit, bye!
*****end conversation******
Ummm...my immediate after thoughts...ANGER then...kinda sad.
Now...indifference.
Not sure what to feel.
I'm not even sure what the issue is.
I mean. I know I'm difficult & I sometimes have a hard time taking the easy way.
I just really thought I was doing so well this time.
I didn't think what I said was so bad. Honestly.
I mean. I think I am really hurt b/c I really do like him. I just don't know how much I like him. As days go by...the test of silence will prove how much I like him. Only thing is...I'm the Queen of Silence. I can completely STOP talking to pretty much anyone. No distractions needed. Cold turkey. Quit! I'm kinda heartless like that. Not saying that's a good thing. I just honestly don't think that anyone would really care. Then I ask myself, would I care...and yes, I would. So...I'm trying to stop doing that too. Damn! I can't do nothing fucking w/you sensitive mufuckas. Maybe, Moe's right...I'm not human. I'm an alien from outer space, like Janelle Monae (she's cool-btw)!
I probably am really hurt. Maybe. I just can't feel it (does that sound like bullshit?) Maybe. I really don't care. Hmmm...
Don't know what's going to happen next. If anything.
Don't know what could happen @ this point.
Hell I think I'm lost...cus Idunno what's going on around here.
Maybe I've become too self-absorbed. Yeah. Maybe. Maybe not though.
Let me just say this though. I feel tricked. Scammed. Set up even. I think he knew what he was doing & now I'm the bad guy...as usual!
Trick me once but I won't let you trick me twice.
If something does happen after this. I'm going back to "manual" mode b/c clearly the "semi-automatic" shit does NOT work. Guess it has to be all or nothing. And I just don't know how to be completely open just yet. I think too much for that.
Honestly though. He's not the problem. HE never was. I always said it was me. That I wasn't ready. But he also said he could deal. Guess he couldn't...and I'm...well...Idunno what I am.
I do know I'm outta here cus my tummy hurts.
So...there you have it...no happy endings here.
Bye.
~Shanette
(I'm not allowing ANYONE to ruin my b-day month!)
Anyways.
I really kinda don't wanna talk about this. Haven't actually discussed (in detail) it w/anyone as of yet.
So...basically. I called, on Friday, "2nd chance" after pressures from my friends. We hadn't spoken in about week or so. Not for real. Bullshit texts. Blah e-mails. Awkward conversations. Anyways, back to Friday. I called. To my surprise he didn't answer. Surprising b/c he never not answers. So...I'm like "Ohhhhkay, wth?!" To my surprise & lapse of rationale I left a message..."What is going on MAN? Tired of playing games. We clearly aren't regular. So be a man & say what's on your mind b/c there IS something on your mind, right???" Hung up. Thought to myself, "not so sure that was a good idea, Shanette...no, it was not! Damnit!" I was supposed to be calling to apologize.
So...he calls back..about 6-7 hours later. By this time, I'm rather annoyed not only by him not answering the phone, but his LOOONG ass delay in returning my call. On top of the fact that I've been drinking. Its about 12 am. Here's the conversation:
(Him=2 Me=1)
1:Hello
2: What's up
1: Idunno. You tell me.
2: What was that message about?
1: You KNOW what the message is about.
2: What do you want me to say, Shanette?
1: I want you to say, "shit is cool, we're regular." So that I can stop feeling like we're playing cat & mouse.
2: Well I can't say that b/c I'm NOT regular & shit is NOT cool.
1: Well wtf is the problem???
2: You.
1: Me???!!!
2: Yep. That's it. Just you.
1: Well if I'm the problem why are you even calling me?
2: b/c I'm polite
(Now I'm MAD!)
1: Polite? No, you're a fucking hypocrite! You talk all this shit & you doing something completely different.
2: Of course. Don't take the blame. Place the blame.
1: Fuck you!
2: Yeah. I know. That's your answer for everything! You really need to...
1: Need to what?!
2: Get yo head out yo ass. Stop blaming other people for YOUR flaws. Its YOU! You are YOUR problem! All this bullshit act you put up. I don't have time for that shit. I'm a man. Period. All that other shit you're accustomed to, that wasn't shit! Its not my fault. Its not your fault. Its life. Deal. I'm sick of your bullshit, Shanette. I'm over it. I'm done.
1: .....are you serious??? Like what do you mean you're done?!
2: I mean I'm done. I'm not dealing w/YOU anymore. You're not ready. I'm not going to pressure you. SO I'm done.
1: Fine. Fine! Gotdamnit! FINE! I don't need this shit from you! wtf are you anyways?!
2: Apparently, no one, right?
1: Is this a gotdamn trick?!
2: WHAT are you talking about?! Are you drunk?
1: What?!
2: Have you been drinking?
1: WTF?! Are you kidding me?
2: No, answer the question.
1: I'm not answering shit!
2: I know. Simple question=extra complex non-answer. I don't even know why I bother.
1: Man gtf off my phone w/that shit!
2: Okay, bye.
1: Shit, bye!
*****end conversation******
Ummm...my immediate after thoughts...ANGER then...kinda sad.
Now...indifference.
Not sure what to feel.
I'm not even sure what the issue is.
I mean. I know I'm difficult & I sometimes have a hard time taking the easy way.
I just really thought I was doing so well this time.
I didn't think what I said was so bad. Honestly.
I mean. I think I am really hurt b/c I really do like him. I just don't know how much I like him. As days go by...the test of silence will prove how much I like him. Only thing is...I'm the Queen of Silence. I can completely STOP talking to pretty much anyone. No distractions needed. Cold turkey. Quit! I'm kinda heartless like that. Not saying that's a good thing. I just honestly don't think that anyone would really care. Then I ask myself, would I care...and yes, I would. So...I'm trying to stop doing that too. Damn! I can't do nothing fucking w/you sensitive mufuckas. Maybe, Moe's right...I'm not human. I'm an alien from outer space, like Janelle Monae (she's cool-btw)!
I probably am really hurt. Maybe. I just can't feel it (does that sound like bullshit?) Maybe. I really don't care. Hmmm...
Don't know what's going to happen next. If anything.
Don't know what could happen @ this point.
Hell I think I'm lost...cus Idunno what's going on around here.
Maybe I've become too self-absorbed. Yeah. Maybe. Maybe not though.
Let me just say this though. I feel tricked. Scammed. Set up even. I think he knew what he was doing & now I'm the bad guy...as usual!
Trick me once but I won't let you trick me twice.
If something does happen after this. I'm going back to "manual" mode b/c clearly the "semi-automatic" shit does NOT work. Guess it has to be all or nothing. And I just don't know how to be completely open just yet. I think too much for that.
Honestly though. He's not the problem. HE never was. I always said it was me. That I wasn't ready. But he also said he could deal. Guess he couldn't...and I'm...well...Idunno what I am.
I do know I'm outta here cus my tummy hurts.
So...there you have it...no happy endings here.
Bye.
~Shanette
(I'm not allowing ANYONE to ruin my b-day month!)
Saturday, October 13, 2007
A Social Experiment
So the yesterday I mentioned pretending...its this new thing I'm trying out.
Is it a crime? You be the judge.
Why?
Cus Moe said I am too tuff right. I never give anybody a chance (boys).
I deserve to be treated well by "no-chance" guys if they're willing. Freebies...gifts, food, trips, stuff<--I like stuff! Though I've just never been that kinda gal-the take stuff from guys that Iun hardly no jus cus. Think I have too much pride or something. Or that just doesn't interest me. But I'm tyring it out...and so far...I must say its going pretty good...not the stuff thing but just the "pretending" in general. Btw-I salute all you hoes (in the nicest way) who can deal w/bullshit niggas to get what you want! You bitches (in the nicest way) should get a medal or some shit...I'll look into that for you.
What?
Pretending is well...everything I'm not. I've always been a real straight up & down type-gal. What you see is what you get. Kinda harsh? Well that's me. SO if you can't deal...by all means don't. Most can't. SO I understand. It ain't easy but its worth it! :D So the idea here is to put all that aside when it comes to boys. Try @ least to not be such a "Meany." I'm really not that bad though. I just don't hardly like nobody & I have a tuff time being fake.
How?
Well. Pretend like I'm interested. Pretend like I care (cus I do NOT). Pretend to be engaged. Just pretend like I'm actually into the person you know...
Who?
SO I've been trying it out on not only new boys but current boys, past boys (the ones I can stand), & even "friend" boys.
I mean everyone wants to feel well...wanted, right? I know I like that "I want" you feeling. SO...I'm sure these boys don't mind @ all. Well...until I don't follow through on majority of the "pretends"...but I try to avoid those @ all cost (running outta stuff though). A lot of the things I've been doing with & for boys I would never do! I mean its kinda cool b/c I'm learning what I really can & can't tolerate. What I like & don't like. That I actually am moving on past "the ex". I'm being more open to new things. Being pleasant isn't so bad. I guess I have to keep in mind though...that this is just all in fun...I hope. I don't wanna hurt anyone...well actually I don't mind hurting them...I just don't want them to hurt ME! I just like to play...I'm still a kid in a grown-up's body...doing grown folk shit when its convenient ; )
So here's to wanting & being wanted...though I don't think Sade meant it in this kinda way...
Until we blog again...
CHEERS Pretenders & all you real hoes-HA!
~Sdotter
Is it a crime? You be the judge.
Why?
Cus Moe said I am too tuff right. I never give anybody a chance (boys).
I deserve to be treated well by "no-chance" guys if they're willing. Freebies...gifts, food, trips, stuff<--I like stuff! Though I've just never been that kinda gal-the take stuff from guys that Iun hardly no jus cus. Think I have too much pride or something. Or that just doesn't interest me. But I'm tyring it out...and so far...I must say its going pretty good...not the stuff thing but just the "pretending" in general. Btw-I salute all you hoes (in the nicest way) who can deal w/bullshit niggas to get what you want! You bitches (in the nicest way) should get a medal or some shit...I'll look into that for you.
What?
Pretending is well...everything I'm not. I've always been a real straight up & down type-gal. What you see is what you get. Kinda harsh? Well that's me. SO if you can't deal...by all means don't. Most can't. SO I understand. It ain't easy but its worth it! :D So the idea here is to put all that aside when it comes to boys. Try @ least to not be such a "Meany." I'm really not that bad though. I just don't hardly like nobody & I have a tuff time being fake.
How?
Well. Pretend like I'm interested. Pretend like I care (cus I do NOT). Pretend to be engaged. Just pretend like I'm actually into the person you know...
Who?
SO I've been trying it out on not only new boys but current boys, past boys (the ones I can stand), & even "friend" boys.
I mean everyone wants to feel well...wanted, right? I know I like that "I want" you feeling. SO...I'm sure these boys don't mind @ all. Well...until I don't follow through on majority of the "pretends"...but I try to avoid those @ all cost (running outta stuff though). A lot of the things I've been doing with & for boys I would never do! I mean its kinda cool b/c I'm learning what I really can & can't tolerate. What I like & don't like. That I actually am moving on past "the ex". I'm being more open to new things. Being pleasant isn't so bad. I guess I have to keep in mind though...that this is just all in fun...I hope. I don't wanna hurt anyone...well actually I don't mind hurting them...I just don't want them to hurt ME! I just like to play...I'm still a kid in a grown-up's body...doing grown folk shit when its convenient ; )
So here's to wanting & being wanted...though I don't think Sade meant it in this kinda way...
Until we blog again...
CHEERS Pretenders & all you real hoes-HA!
~Sdotter
Friday, October 12, 2007
Sugar Honey Ice Tea
Actually I was thinking about Loso (in case you aint noso) on the Shawty is a Ten remix (yeah I slick like it...shhh)...you should tip me! But no really the Kelis joint from the Tasty album is much more banging! Trip part is this has nothing to do w/the post other than I'm sweet as hell...in more ways than one ; D (I don't even like tea-btw)
So here's what it is about:
Anyways...so I know how October is supposed to be my month, shit...but its actually not going too haute...but I mean you know...that's life...shit never goes as planned. So no complaints. I'll just pretend (thats my new hobby...pretending...tell you bout that later) like I'm having a SUPER month!
Here's some stuff I love that ALWAYS makes me feel better whether I'm up or down!
YAY for STUFF!
So...I not I'm not like the biggest girlie girl but hey...lilies & tulips-MeLikey! No thanks roses and hells naw to carnations-got that from Carrie (Bradshaw-duh!)
Speaking of Carrie. SATC DEF makes me smile! Love love loves it!
My #1s make me happy...Maddness & Addness (their crazy Mommies too)! YAY! They're growings on up!
Shopping!!! (nuff said) I just like the concept of newness...it could be toothpaste...and I'm excited...after my 1st use though...I'm over it.
Compliments!!! Who does NOT like compliments?! Now I know I'm fly as a mufucka BUT its always nice to know that someone else KNOWs that too! lol.
$$$-lets be honest...the root of all evil-yes...but don't ya feel GREAT when ya bank account is right?! Well I do...forget you!
Mani/Pedi-OMGosh! I feel so extra good afterwards! So like the princess that I am! Yep my BIG grown ass is STILL a princess, bitches!
Sushi & red wine-those are instant mood changers (well really salmon)...its a scientific fact!
Music! I'm a music lover...all kinds. Coltrane to Lil Jon! Music that says what I'm thinking. That inspires me. That uplifts me. That makes me happy. That makes me (wanna)dance. That I can associate w/a time & place in my life. That's what I love. Like Ye. He always knows just what to say & for that he's #1 in my book! (too bad I already used my pic of me & Ye in the other post...ah well)
I know y'all tired of hearing this one..but Iun care! I ♥ New Orleans, LA w/all my heart & soul!!! Makes me feel so content. Like nothing else matters. Ahhh...the G.O.O.D. Life!
A great night out...hanging w/the girls or chillin w/my boo...topped of w/a lil or a LOT ;) S E X = YES YES YEAYUUUUUUH!!! So what?! I'm kinda nasty...but hey if I don't mind...then neither should you...besides...you prolly like it more than I do! :-P
My awesome friends make me happy...sometimes...bitches...j/k.
My suder & her chappies...they drive me CRAZY but I love em no less...its like they're my own...except...they're not...and that's what so great! Although...my family is extremely dysfuntional! Whooo Lawd knows they are freakin INSANE but man that's the irony...NEVER a dull moment...and I lubs it! They make my world go round...I'm extremely Blessed.
Speaking of blessed! My #1 homie & main man Jesus ALWAYS brightens my day. He's the reason for all my seasons baby! Everything I'm not made me everything I am! Forver in his debt for saving a little sinner like me! I'm awesome just b/c of that! Why would I expect anything less??? WHY?! Hence...I don't! Which is why I takes none & dishes even less! I don't even deal w/less thans...There I said it...I'm tha bomb watch me BLOW!
...blowing right on away...
Till we blog again...if you're having a bad day, week, month, year, life...remember you're in control of you. SO...if you wanna be misreable by all means...BE, like Common. BUT if you wanna be happy, just do it, like Nike! Think good thoughts...no really...it works. I know...I tried it. Take control. Pray. Love you. Be happy. That's all I wanna do. (stack a lil paper-tithe (can't forget who GAVE me all I need & more)- & have fun too...lol...that's not too too much is it?! NAaay...I didn't think so either)
Okay peace out little grasshoppers.
~Sdotter
So here's what it is about:
Anyways...so I know how October is supposed to be my month, shit...but its actually not going too haute...but I mean you know...that's life...shit never goes as planned. So no complaints. I'll just pretend (thats my new hobby...pretending...tell you bout that later) like I'm having a SUPER month!
Here's some stuff I love that ALWAYS makes me feel better whether I'm up or down!
YAY for STUFF!
So...I not I'm not like the biggest girlie girl but hey...lilies & tulips-MeLikey! No thanks roses and hells naw to carnations-got that from Carrie (Bradshaw-duh!)Speaking of Carrie. SATC DEF makes me smile! Love love loves it!
My #1s make me happy...Maddness & Addness (their crazy Mommies too)! YAY! They're growings on up!
Shopping!!! (nuff said) I just like the concept of newness...it could be toothpaste...and I'm excited...after my 1st use though...I'm over it.
Compliments!!! Who does NOT like compliments?! Now I know I'm fly as a mufucka BUT its always nice to know that someone else KNOWs that too! lol.
$$$-lets be honest...the root of all evil-yes...but don't ya feel GREAT when ya bank account is right?! Well I do...forget you!
Mani/Pedi-OMGosh! I feel so extra good afterwards! So like the princess that I am! Yep my BIG grown ass is STILL a princess, bitches!
Sushi & red wine-those are instant mood changers (well really salmon)...its a scientific fact!
Music! I'm a music lover...all kinds. Coltrane to Lil Jon! Music that says what I'm thinking. That inspires me. That uplifts me. That makes me happy. That makes me (wanna)dance. That I can associate w/a time & place in my life. That's what I love. Like Ye. He always knows just what to say & for that he's #1 in my book! (too bad I already used my pic of me & Ye in the other post...ah well)I know y'all tired of hearing this one..but Iun care! I ♥ New Orleans, LA w/all my heart & soul!!! Makes me feel so content. Like nothing else matters. Ahhh...the G.O.O.D. Life!
A great night out...hanging w/the girls or chillin w/my boo...topped of w/a lil or a LOT ;) S E X = YES YES YEAYUUUUUUH!!! So what?! I'm kinda nasty...but hey if I don't mind...then neither should you...besides...you prolly like it more than I do! :-P
My awesome friends make me happy...sometimes...bitches...j/k.
My suder & her chappies...they drive me CRAZY but I love em no less...its like they're my own...except...they're not...and that's what so great! Although...my family is extremely dysfuntional! Whooo Lawd knows they are freakin INSANE but man that's the irony...NEVER a dull moment...and I lubs it! They make my world go round...I'm extremely Blessed. Speaking of blessed! My #1 homie & main man Jesus ALWAYS brightens my day. He's the reason for all my seasons baby! Everything I'm not made me everything I am! Forver in his debt for saving a little sinner like me! I'm awesome just b/c of that! Why would I expect anything less??? WHY?! Hence...I don't! Which is why I takes none & dishes even less! I don't even deal w/less thans...There I said it...I'm tha bomb watch me BLOW!
...blowing right on away...
Till we blog again...if you're having a bad day, week, month, year, life...remember you're in control of you. SO...if you wanna be misreable by all means...BE, like Common. BUT if you wanna be happy, just do it, like Nike! Think good thoughts...no really...it works. I know...I tried it. Take control. Pray. Love you. Be happy. That's all I wanna do. (stack a lil paper-tithe (can't forget who GAVE me all I need & more)- & have fun too...lol...that's not too too much is it?! NAaay...I didn't think so either)
Okay peace out little grasshoppers.
~Sdotter
Friday, October 5, 2007
Optimistic! October!
I ♥ Fall!
Its such a Fantabulous time!
The great weather...for picnics...dropping the top...trips to the lake...adventures in the park...boat rides...flyin kites...having BIG fun!
The clothes...chic coats...snazzy sweaters...bangin boots...thicke tights...hip hats...darhling dresses...HAUTE, HAUTE, HAUTE!
My bday...friends...family...food...cake...drinks...dancing...clubs...boys...THE G.O.O.D. Life...living it...even when I'm not!
Its just all so lovely!
Wow! My b-day...its already October?!
2 4! Yikes!
This means I have a little over a year to FA REAL FA REAL GIT!
No like really!
I can list a number of things that I am dying to have accomplished by then but none of them are as important as...RELOCATION!!!
If I am not out of Memphis by October 5, 2008...I am literally going to just pack up and leave w/whatevs in the bank & whatevs on my back...I'll fig the rest out when I get to where I'm going.
Seriously...this shit here...this shit right here nicca...is for the birds!
I have gotten ALL that Memphis can offer ME!
So M-town...we cool & all...but HOLLA!
So anywhoo...like I was saying...I'm expecting a stupendous birthday...not that I'm just doing anything extravagant...but I mean you know...to see another year...healthy & haute ;) is enuff in itself to shout GLORY! So...GLORY! Though hopefully I'll be in Houston/New Orleans for my b-day week...hanging w/Madd&Nic...Moe,Sdubb, & Sach...and whomever else wants to be in the mix...which is usu errbody. No like really somebody is always tryna hang...I be like "uh no thanks...all of our hanging spots have been filled, lol!"
This time last year my hair was a lot longer...well not a WHOLE lot but I mean you know...a noticeable amount...I could wear a lil "white girl ponytail" So...gotta fig out what Imma do bout my hair...money is uh...subpar...and my hair is au naturale (BOOOO-perms!)...so my choices be kinda limited...I'm not a big weave fan...something about the whole "fake" thing disturbs me. I can only go as far as braids and even that is bothersome. SO...we'll see...keep ya posted.
What else is poppin off?
Oh yeah. Called "2nd chance" after a 3-day silence. He gave me the asshole-one-answer treatment. Hell I gave it right back...then I caught myself. I ignored it & tried to smooth him over but he just wasn't feelin it so I was like okay whatevs. Though I was kinda hurt like "Dang! What's THAT about?!" Then I texted him like "what's your deal? Is there something up? We not cool?" He hit me w/the long ass pause b/c he knows I hate that shit! I'm like "I KNOW you by yo phone cus we JUST got off...WTF!" He replied like "What?" I was like "Ugh. NEvermind. Hell!" Him: "See that's the problem now...your nonchalant attitude." Me: "WTF does THAT mean?!" Him: "You don't give a fuck about me. How you call me 3 days after you ain't heard from me...knowing I am pissed @ you...like shit is cool?!" Me: "I mean. How you not call in 3 days like that's cool?! Was that a test or some shit?! We playing games now?!" Him: "Shanette you are SO self-absorbed and despite what you think in that little Me, Myself & I-filled mind of yours...everything is NOT about YOU and you're NOT alwyas right! Get over yourself!" Me: "GTFOH! I'm not talkin about this shit via text...I don't even know wtf you talkin bout!" Him: "OF course you don't. Its cool. I'll call you later...cus I know its your way or NO way!" Me: Blank text-In my mind-"STFU!" I ain't replyin to that crazy shit! That was Sunday. Ask me if I have talked to him...go ahead ask me...HELL NAW! And today is what?! FRIDAY, BITCHES! But its cool...I'm cool. Whatevs. I ain't playin w/no grown ass nigga! He's not about to ruin my damn birthday month! SUCKA! I will move right along on that ass...like Bey..."you must not know bout me...lets go lil Kitty Kat!" HOLLA!
...and on that note...
I'm blowing...
Have a fabulous Fall...go buy a fly ass military style trench. Rock a bold purple top. Uber cool jeans. Some SUPER tall, platform, knee-length boots. Lots of bangles & big ass earrings!
I know. Its not that cold yet...but it doesn't hurt to be ready. Right now is the transition phase...SO...you can pretty much rock whatevs...me...I'll be sticking to my white tees. Jeans. Ballets. LOTS of accessories! You know how I do!...well no you don't but I mean. You know...
Okay guys gotta jet...I SO need to RELEASE myself...lol...I know...EWW! ...but I said that b/c it made me think of Diddy's YouTube vid where he goes to the restroom...that's how I feel right now...SO FUNNY!
POB!
~Sdott
Its such a Fantabulous time!
The great weather...for picnics...dropping the top...trips to the lake...adventures in the park...boat rides...flyin kites...having BIG fun!
The clothes...chic coats...snazzy sweaters...bangin boots...thicke tights...hip hats...darhling dresses...HAUTE, HAUTE, HAUTE!
My bday...friends...family...food...cake...drinks...dancing...clubs...boys...THE G.O.O.D. Life...living it...even when I'm not!
Its just all so lovely!
Wow! My b-day...its already October?!
2 4! Yikes!
This means I have a little over a year to FA REAL FA REAL GIT!
No like really!
I can list a number of things that I am dying to have accomplished by then but none of them are as important as...RELOCATION!!!
If I am not out of Memphis by October 5, 2008...I am literally going to just pack up and leave w/whatevs in the bank & whatevs on my back...I'll fig the rest out when I get to where I'm going.
Seriously...this shit here...this shit right here nicca...is for the birds!
I have gotten ALL that Memphis can offer ME!
So M-town...we cool & all...but HOLLA!
So anywhoo...like I was saying...I'm expecting a stupendous birthday...not that I'm just doing anything extravagant...but I mean you know...to see another year...healthy & haute ;) is enuff in itself to shout GLORY! So...GLORY! Though hopefully I'll be in Houston/New Orleans for my b-day week...hanging w/Madd&Nic...Moe,Sdubb, & Sach...and whomever else wants to be in the mix...which is usu errbody. No like really somebody is always tryna hang...I be like "uh no thanks...all of our hanging spots have been filled, lol!"
This time last year my hair was a lot longer...well not a WHOLE lot but I mean you know...a noticeable amount...I could wear a lil "white girl ponytail" So...gotta fig out what Imma do bout my hair...money is uh...subpar...and my hair is au naturale (BOOOO-perms!)...so my choices be kinda limited...I'm not a big weave fan...something about the whole "fake" thing disturbs me. I can only go as far as braids and even that is bothersome. SO...we'll see...keep ya posted.
What else is poppin off?
Oh yeah. Called "2nd chance" after a 3-day silence. He gave me the asshole-one-answer treatment. Hell I gave it right back...then I caught myself. I ignored it & tried to smooth him over but he just wasn't feelin it so I was like okay whatevs. Though I was kinda hurt like "Dang! What's THAT about?!" Then I texted him like "what's your deal? Is there something up? We not cool?" He hit me w/the long ass pause b/c he knows I hate that shit! I'm like "I KNOW you by yo phone cus we JUST got off...WTF!" He replied like "What?" I was like "Ugh. NEvermind. Hell!" Him: "See that's the problem now...your nonchalant attitude." Me: "WTF does THAT mean?!" Him: "You don't give a fuck about me. How you call me 3 days after you ain't heard from me...knowing I am pissed @ you...like shit is cool?!" Me: "I mean. How you not call in 3 days like that's cool?! Was that a test or some shit?! We playing games now?!" Him: "Shanette you are SO self-absorbed and despite what you think in that little Me, Myself & I-filled mind of yours...everything is NOT about YOU and you're NOT alwyas right! Get over yourself!" Me: "GTFOH! I'm not talkin about this shit via text...I don't even know wtf you talkin bout!" Him: "OF course you don't. Its cool. I'll call you later...cus I know its your way or NO way!" Me: Blank text-In my mind-"STFU!" I ain't replyin to that crazy shit! That was Sunday. Ask me if I have talked to him...go ahead ask me...HELL NAW! And today is what?! FRIDAY, BITCHES! But its cool...I'm cool. Whatevs. I ain't playin w/no grown ass nigga! He's not about to ruin my damn birthday month! SUCKA! I will move right along on that ass...like Bey..."you must not know bout me...lets go lil Kitty Kat!" HOLLA!
...and on that note...
I'm blowing...
Have a fabulous Fall...go buy a fly ass military style trench. Rock a bold purple top. Uber cool jeans. Some SUPER tall, platform, knee-length boots. Lots of bangles & big ass earrings!
I know. Its not that cold yet...but it doesn't hurt to be ready. Right now is the transition phase...SO...you can pretty much rock whatevs...me...I'll be sticking to my white tees. Jeans. Ballets. LOTS of accessories! You know how I do!...well no you don't but I mean. You know...
Okay guys gotta jet...I SO need to RELEASE myself...lol...I know...EWW! ...but I said that b/c it made me think of Diddy's YouTube vid where he goes to the restroom...that's how I feel right now...SO FUNNY!
POB!
~Sdott
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