Dear God,

Remember that list I made like 10 months ago...so i was re-reading it tonight and laughed @ like half of the things on it...most of them are pretty ridiculous in that i even felt the need to include them in the list, however, whatever was going on @ that time in my life...i did just that...here's the list in case you forgot (which i know you didn't oh omniscient one) but here's a refresher, just for my sake...
Qualities I would like for the man that I marry to possess includes but are not limited to or stricken by the following…
(Not in order of priority)

Spiritual (pref. Christian)
Considerate
Appreciates the Small Stuff
Complex Mind w/a Simple Attitude
6 feet or taller
Smarter than me but not pretentious
Handsome/Debonair
Nice teeth (great smile)
Great Hair (not necessarily in texture but more so in presentation)
Great Body
Nice Eyes
Ambitious
Goal-oriented
Optimistic
Confident
Family-oriented
Sexual person meaning that he understands the importance of and enjoys doing so but also enjoys the comfort, intensity, and bond it creates with another person (Superb in bed)
Not addicted to Porn/Sex
Has no past/current history of STD’s
Maximum history 15 partners
Has never been with nor interested in same sex experiences
Patient
Cautious
Driven
Courageous
Athletic (pref. a professional football player)
Swim
Fish
Horse back riding
Golf
Chess/Poker/Spades
No Harmful Addictions
Small-town oriented w/ Big-city attitude
Tough (esp. w/ me)
Passionate
Open-minded but values his beliefs
Organized
Clean
No kids (maybe 1 (over 5 yrs. of age)
Likes children
Can/Likes Cook
Cultured
Likes (to):
i. Travel
ii. Read
iii. Museums
iv. Movies
v. Paintings/Pictures/Art
vi. Music
29. Employed (pref. a career)
a. Enjoys job/career choice
b. Is never complacent with current job, hence always looking to excel or branch out into new endeavors
Spontaneous
Fun
Nice hands & feet
Fashionable but not Flashy
Social drinker/smoker only (no cigarettes)
Chameleon
Has/working towards owning a home
Vehicle
Good Credit
Can dance/sing
Empathetic
Good Listener
Understanding
Humorous but not goofy
Emotional (as in understands the importance of conveying emotions well but is not an impulsive whiner/crier)
Bi-Lingual
Never been w/ another man (sexually)
Appreciates Strong Black Women
Good Medical History
Gentleman
Creative
“Man’s Man”
Always Smells Great (even after rigorous physical activity)
News Conscious
Upstanding Citizen
No Serious Criminal Record
Computer Literate
Has/Wants a Boat
Health-Conscious
Liberal
Democrat
Complimentary
Respects and wants to be apart of the sanctity of marriage
Has a good medical history and comes from a family with the same
Responsible
Loves God & Himself
Learns to love my family, my friends and ME.

...pretty intense huh?!-lol-not so much but pretty obsessive...i mean hey what can i say that's what i felt @ the time and prolly for the most part still feel that way but i'm a little more apathetic these days so half those things don't even really matter to me @ the moment b/c i can't even see myself married anymore...not to say i don't want to be, just saying right now i'm focusing on me, getting my life together...you know i can't be asking for all those things in someone else if my game isn't tight...right God...RIGHT!-lol

...so i guess i'm coming to you tonight b/c i been doing a lot of thinking and i consider myself a pretty cool girl, and while I have cheated on most my sig. others...I know I have been forgiven...right God? Ahh thanks, God, i knew you'd understand! So um yeah to be honest w/you i just need a good guy, you know....not too fast but not too slow either...just somebody by my side to help smooth that thang out...i mean he doesn't even have to have a BIG ole bank account just something well-porportioned to our lifestyles...huh? you say you found somebody? well where is he...ahh thanks God...You're The Greatest!

Amen...oh, excuse me, i'm sorry...ahlady!

patiently waiting w/open arms,

S. Parks!

Miscommunication...

This post is brought to you in part by "Miscommunication" from Timbaland's Shock Value album.

Okay so I was thinking, right, yep something I do more often than not...anywho...

Can friends, like real friends have sex and still just be friends???

I swear that question is worth like half a mill alone!

Here's my answer...I mean that is why you're here right, to get MY thoughts...k so herrrrreeeee they go....

I say, sure they can, but will things change? Definitely! Here's why...real friends usually discuss all aspects of their lives right? Right? so um...we are human, and its only natural, like real talk its only natural to attach feelings w/sex...i mean that was the original purpose of the act...

While most claim that they can detach the 2, I have found that those most are usually lying are have fallin victim @ least once...I mean not to say victim like oh you're being slayed-lol-but victim like "damn i wasn't expecting this and now i'm in some serious shit!"

So...how do I know you ask?!?! I was getting to that...I have experienced this on more than 1 occasion...none of which i have been the victim (yet), thank the Lawd and pass the peas.

Okay so let me run it down for you...this is how I have experienced this thing called "Lovers and Friends"...um only on 1 occasion did the lovers part "just happen"...all the other incidents we pre-meditated. I'll give a brief overview of both.

So scenario 1: the it just happened...that was actually okay...i mean it was a shocker to us both...and we kinda didn't chat for a minute afterwards (i guess trying to fig. hey did that really just happen). Once we did see each other it was actually cool...we were both w/a lil boo so you know...had to play it off real slick like. However, we decided that we didn't want to do it again for the sake of the friendship and our existing relationships....and we're still cool right now on today. So that one was a breeze...good....now this next one gets real sticky, and I actually thought these out...maybe that's what i get for thinking so damn much...but i can't help it!

Scenario 2: aight so yeah for the most i have been the one to initiate the lovers & friends thing. and I try to get a clear understanding of the situation before hand, you know. like i'm usually like okay this is how i am post-the act, i don't/do like the following, and most important are you CERTAIN you can handle this...are you fo sho?!?! b/c im going to be a real piece of work if this doesn't go as planned...i mean you're saying you aren't gonna catch feelings and all that jazz right..coo...now a few months later low and behold i got somebody telln me they love me (i just threw up in my mouth-btw). Man what are you saying?! and why are you saying it?! is that what you think i wanna hear b/c i promise you couldn't be furthest from the truth...i no wanna hear that...you are really putting me in a uncomfortable situation, and i don't like those...i mean really who likes complicated sex....I do NOT...pre-,post-, during...I don't wanna think about it I just wanna do it. all that extra is really turning me off!

Like seriously, i know it seems weird but i'm serious, no like seriously i'm for real! i told you i'm not like most girls...the "i love you" turns me off (i mean when i don't feel the same), the extra affection is so NOT needed, the weirdenss, the anything non-regular is NOT what I want here...prollums...and Scrap said it best, you don't want no prollums, esp. not w/me.-lol-no seriously...just ugh...nevermind!

See these are the kinds of things that makes me become abstinent for like months @ a time...its just too much!

So here is my bottom line i am no longer having sex w/my friends...i'm just not. like it alters the whole dynamic of the relationship you know...everything becomes about THAT, when is THAT happening, did you like IT...too much...complicated...sure i make things, well most things, difficult but sex is NOT one of them...works out better for my conscience (yes I DO have one of those).

So here's my suggestion: don't have sex w/your friends...like if you actually want to remain friends. however if you must, i'd say let it happen, don't talk about it and if it goes well once then you might be in the clear, if not STOP right there. keep the discussions to a minimum they becoming overrated, annoying, and counter-productive.

Yep that's all for today folks...so what did we learn today...sex+friends=a stickier situation than the actual act-lol-yeah i'm nasty-so what?! I told you about letting yo kids read the blog man, it ain't for them!

maybe i might kinda think about giving sex up again for awhile...wait...um...yeah...after the summer...yeah... after the summer ; )

and w/that I'm...GONE

POB

~S. Parks

why oh why???

...is errbody gettting hitched and catching (yes I said catching) preggers like its a cold?!

I mean I'm just saying...

Okay sure I have never just been the kind of girl who like planned that BIG day or anything, but that doesn't mean I don't want to get married...that just means I never thought it was a BIG deal...but that could also be b/c my 'rents kinda hate each other (a whole nother post @ a later time).

I mean like ALL of my friends are getting married and having babies pre-25...I mean I'm not knocking it..I'm just saying when did that become like "in"?!

Okay sure I want a family...but on today???
Hell to the naw...like I can't hardly take care of Shanette let lone a little person whose life would be dependent upon mines...and def not keeping up w/no nigga.

I mean I value the commitment and sincerity of marriage, so its something I take rather seriously...hence I can't just be marrying for the hell of it...

Shit folk change errday...I just can't make that kind of LIFE decision right now...hell I cant even figure my own damn life out...

Shit I'm looking for my next vacay, next party, next boo, next any damn thing...I like my life its great!

So I guess they like their lives too, and if that's true then hey do ya thang!

I mean maybe I'm confused...or maybe I'm too shallow or something...

Sex, money(not like together), drugs(Iun even do drugs for real)...and alcohol...that's my life right now...and I'm okay w/that...

I like being by my damn self shit cus I can't mess up w/nobody but me...so much easier that way!

and on that note...I'm out...


POB!

~S. Parks

The Weekend Wrap-Up...S dot style

Guess who popped back into town last weekend and this time he neglected to forewarn me @ all period! Come on man, what are you doing...what are we doing???

Okay okay I get you're playing by my rules b/c I think you think that impresses me, but I'm not sure if you're doing it for you or for me...or neither...I mean yeah I told you what pushes me away and I reckon you're being considerate enuff not to do that, so that shows you care...WAIT...stop...yeah over-analyzing again...okay...moving on!

I just randomly (well not so much randomly...but I mean dayum he could have said "hey I'll be in town for the fight this weekend" and I would've replied "coo"...the END!) spotted him on Beale, Friday night...now you know me...hell I faked like I ain't see his ass, shiiiiittt..."I like you but I'm no fool brother...uh unh (you can't tell me nothing)!" So I say to myself...hmm..."what to do, what to do"..mind you I was w/Q ("J.O."), but he is so irrelevant...I'm not even sure why I just mentioned him...like he is so not a threat to anyone (well maybe in one area, *wink*, yeah man he gots you in that area "2nd chance"...sawry...Imma give you 1 more chance like Biggie, shit that's all I can spare, brother) Anywho...so..."2nd chance" spots me...he strolls up like butter and says "wuz hannen girl"..."WHA?! That's ALL you could come up with?! I mean did I miss something?!" He claims he called, but you KNOW Iun hardly believe that shit...I say did you leave a message, did you text...no and no ("you know you don't check vm's")...."well I check texts so tell that shit to the next loser!" He was like well "I apologize and we're here now so what's up, wait you and dude together???" Lol, no really I laughed (well more like chuckled), "um yeah we are, but not like that!" "Oh well like what?" "Like nothing, hell he here, I'm here, you here, errbody here, so...lets move on"-lol! So I chucked Q the deuce (btw I think he was lil po'ed, but hey me no care), I mean hell we met each other down there, so I'm saying bruh, chill OUT!

So we hung out for a lil while; I can't hardly deal w/large Memphis crowds too long...sawry! So I bounced...he was w/his homeboys so I didn't wanna cause no prollums! We hooked up briefly Sunday for brunch, it was cool....the end!

Nothing major...I'm back to chill mode w/him, and I'm glad..no awkwardness, no weirdness, no harshness or unnecessary sarcasms (I mean outside of my normalcy). So all in all it was good, aside from the minor, initial hurdle. But it was no biggie, I mean I've learned to not sweat the small stuff @ least pertaining to men...something new I'm trying out...maybe if I don't bitch them out, interrogate them, or give them an unnecessarily hard time they won't eff up as often...they (hopefully) will enjoy their freedom respectfully, still feel like a man, and YAY, we all win! Besides, he's NOT my man, anyways, so I have no rank, no pull, no clout...so hey what is the point in throwing a fit??? Just to show I can? Too much time! Too much energy! In the end...he prolly still won't get it...I mean its a fact "Men are just plain dumb!" I mean, no like really, they don't think so analytically, intuitively, and/or rationally like women...bottom line! So just like they think they are catering to our needs by being sensitive to our high-emotional state, trust we are catering to yours by acting like we're not as smart when we're really just dumbing down to not bruise your lil ego b/c of your lack of mental state (get on my level, hoe-lol!!!).

So that was my weekend...and trust me that was BIG shit...my life is so mundane man, you could clock that it! But oh just wait...next weekend is MIA and the following is NOLA!!! HA HA snitches, what you know about that?!

Uh Unh, YOU can't tell ME NOTHING!!!

I mean really am I not the best thing since Jesus, okay @ least since the first Micheal Jordan comeback...remember that shit, I swear errbody was all geeked up!
Took a sigh of relief, like "ahhh everything in the world is right again!" Yup...that's ME...and I can do that for you, if you just give in and lemme have your soul ; ) stop frontin, Pharrell, you know you wanna!

and on that note I'm out!

Good day, good people

~S.

What IS It?!?!

(this post is brought to you in part by Lil Webbie's "What Is It" from the Savage Life album)

I mean is it just me or are niggas acting so extra gay these days! Not like "my wrist broke" gay but like a female gay...like extra sensitive, emotional, and needy?! Ummm excuse me I thought that was my job, sir...hell now what am I supposed to be doing? Oh I know...being a nigga...ugh, whatev!

I mean What iz it?!

So this is what I'm saying...In recent months, in my dealings with the opposite sex, I have been finding that they are "catching feelings" rather fast or better yet doing that comeback shit. Lemme just take a moment to address this shit called "the comeback!" Which is when a nigga has decided to leave, split, cheat, move on, get married, become gay (not that has happened to me, but hey this is 2007 and that shit is quite likely to happen in my lifetime), basically an abrupt exit in turn leaving the woman in a confused state of disarray, and returning like didn't shit happen...and I ask yet again my nigga "Iz you rollin?!"

Like that shit is SO NOT haute, bruh! Girls, okay WOMEN, don't like that shit @ all...well hell I know I don't! I mean why the fuck would I want you constantly popping up in my life, whenev the hell you feel like it...as if I'm just your lil puppy dog or some shit that you pet on occasion!
Naw naw, you gots to fall back, better yet fall OFF, a damn cliff w/that shit! I mean not only does that make me feel I have NO control but it makes me think you have not a fucking clue, or maybe you think I don't have a clue.

Well the shit stops TODAY!!!

I mean sure I'm ALL that...whatever THAT is...wouldn't you like to know...or in this case wouldn't you like to know AGAIN! Well keep reminiscing like Bilal, bruh, cus the shit ain't hannen! Keep it moving lil doggies!!! Keep it moving!!!

Tell it to ya wife...HA...dumbass!!! I'm just saying..."WHY is she here Ike?!"

So back to the new edition dudes who are catching feelings so extra quick...fallin all in love and shit...boy yun even know me, shit yun know love either! Fall back! If that is your tactic of mind-control try it out on the next fool, b/c this one here ain't biting! I'm not impressed...takes a lot to impress me and that shit is not on the "Impress Me List"!!! I don't need anybody selling me the dream, hell I have a hard enuff time deciphering my on damn dreams let lone the ones you tryna sell. So keep on selling b/c I ain't buying my nigga!

So to all you ex's, former "lil boos", friends, j.o.'s (jump-offs), etc. find someone else to pop up on b/c I'm over it!

and on that note...I'm out!

Good day, good folks!

BTW, I actually created this post back in April...just now finishing it...so it doesn't apply to "2nd chance" ; ) my boo...oooh wee!!!

DAYUM!!! That was so good I think I wanna buy him a short set...

(today's post is brought to you in part by Bey's, "Suga Mama" on the B-Day album & Destiny's Child's, "Hey Ladies" on the Writing's on the Wall album)

Hey Ladies,

Have you ever wondered why men can do us wrong, and for some strange reason we just decide to keep holding on...I mean, come on nay my sister lets just keep it all the way gangsta, like Webbie, it ain't always Love...more like...Lust?! [...I'm telling you Lust (yep it gets the cap treatment too) sometimes overrides trust (thanks, Lupe)]

Have you ever... I mean have you EVER...(holeup can I get real tactless and kinda crass right now on today...I mean this is MY damn blog, if you no likey, LEAVE SNITCHES (yeah I'm still working on the no "b-word" thing...tuff)!!!

Have you EVER been dicked D O W N so GOOD, that you like literally want to "commit" yourself b/c you are clearly nutz (no pun intended)?! (well...I have)

Have you ever...so good that you wanted to cook him breakfast, lunch and dinner?! (Shamefully I have, like literally)

Have you ever...so good that you literally couldn't even see straight....you know when you have gotten SO drunk that like you literally can NOT see...that's what I mean?! (Sure have)

Have you ever...so good, that hell you thought you was DRUNK?! (YUP)

Have you ever...so good, that you had to actually go into hiding for like a day or two...from the world I mean...w/him?! (Guilty, I'm talkin bout my ass was closed off from the world for 48 hours...phone off, "Top" (that's my laptop) off...yeah sad I know...lol)

Have you ever...so good, you wanted to change your name to boo and fuck around and call him?!?! (okay naw I ain't never wanted to do that, Weezy F., but its a thought)

Have you ever...so good that you wanted to SLAP him @ the thought of him giving it to someone else?! (ummmm...I must say I wanted to do more than slap that boy, ya hear me...SO SINCERE!)

Have you ever...so good that you saw yourself float up into the air look @ your earth self still lying there and say "ICE COLD, get ya shit together, reght now?!" (LOL...I plead the 5th on this one)

Have you ever...so good that you wanted to get it bronzed and framed and placed on your mantle?!?! (ummm naw, b/c then I gets no benefit from it, but I have wanted to give out an award..."I'm a BEAST"...lol)

Have you ever...so good that you wanted to buy him a damn short set?!?! (lol, nay Bey, you went too far! I ain't never wanted to buy no nigga a damn short set, maybe some cologne, a tie, some J's, a plane ticket, but not a short-set, lol you can have that one!)


So yeah...I have had the pleasure of the "make you lose you religion "D""...real talk!
What you know about that?!
Trust me it can be deadly...proceed w/caution is my advice!
Well I'm not sharing mines, but if you come across some of your own...get your mental prepped b/c this is going to be one hell of an emotional roller coaster.
You do know sex fucks w/your mental...come on now...you gotta know that...
Sex is POWERFUL bruh, that shit has made folks rob, steal, and kill! Whether they knew it or NOT!
Sex fucks w/your mental, your physical, your spiritual, your social, and err-other "al" you can come up with!
Even the strongest have fallen victim to some good sex, shit, even to some bad sex (b/c they ain't know no better-po thing).
So either "Just say no" or go w/the flow, snitches!

But remember its the gift and the curse!

...and w/that I'm headed to get back on my knees...j/k'ing...kinda ; )

Good day, good folks

~S. Parks

Hey Mama,

(brought to you in part by Ye's (KanYe West) "Hey Mama" from the Late Registration album)
You know @ this time in my life my mommy and I, are ALWAYS arguing!
HOWEVER, the Lord said "honor thy father and mother", for they are your parents...its just that simple!
Yeah man! Its hard esp. w/my mom...this lady is NUTZ, but I LOVE her nonetheless.
I know its so cliche' to say "you gonna miss her when she's gone" but its the truff!
As much as my momma drives me insane, no like really over the edge, I cannot and chose not to imagine life w/o her!
All the harassing/annoying phone calls throughout the day...no more!
All the times I need rescuing like only a mother can do...no more!
All the times I need to complain about my looney "faja"...no more!
All the times I want to know how I behaved as a child...no more!
All the times I need money and I'm "too proud to beg" anyone else for it...no more!
All the times I want some really GOOD food, like only my mommy can cook...no more!

So today and all the days of my/her life I will cherish thee, MOMMEE!
She's MY MOMMA...the only Mama I have known...she's my real #1...I love my momma!

And y'all love my momma too...why b/c she made the best thing since the 1st Micheal Jordan comeback...ME...duh! I'm apart of her (whether I like it or not), so thanks Mom, you did good!

I'm a woman b/c of you, a confident, strong, God-fearing, educated, compassionate, intelligent (she didn't let me watch cartoons, like @ all period...I didn't even know I was missing out on until like age 10...went to school...hearing these folk talk about all the latest cartoons...I'm like "uh that didn't come on my TV...my cartoons talked about how to learn my multiplication" lol)!

Anyways, thanks Mom for that special song you'd sing to me when I was on the verge of giving up..."just believe in yourself, as I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!" If you know my mother you know how she sang this to me, and if for nothing else I did my work so she would @ least STOP singing...lol no, I love my mom's singing (shhh don't tell her I said that), it makes her unique, along w/her obsession for purple!

Okay, so that's my ode to my mommy and all the mommies out there...from your children...we just wanna say...You're the best Mom ever...priceless!

Thanks Moms and Happy Mommy's day!

You ROCK!

and w/that I'm out...
Good day, good folks!

~S. Parks

I ain't no smoking chick but you got me wanting it!

This is a GREAT song.
Reminds you why, Love (yep its so powerful it gets the "capital" treatment), can be a great thing.
Its fun times (like literally, lol)!
BTW, Tamia is an awesome singer/song-writer as well, not to mention she is seemingly in The perfect relationship!
I love it!
Gives me hope!
Makes me happy!
So when you're giving up on Love or the act of fallin into it or making it for that matter...give this a spin and see how quickly you reconsider!


"Can't Get Enough Of You"
by Tamia
album: Between Friends


[Spoken]
I know you usually don’t hear me talk like this
But I got a little game that I want to play
Are you ready?


[Verse 1]
When I think about you…
I think about giving myself to you
Cause you know I want you babe
And…
I will do anything
I know your thinking the same thing babe
So come and get it, get it (come and get it)
I’m so excited
I can’t hide my feelings (I cant hide my feelings) Get it
I wont stop until we start over and finish (finish)
Tonight it’s all about my baby
I’m feenin for you get me high
I can’t stop you feel me right?


[Chorus X2]
Close the door
Bed or floor
I want more
I can’t get enough of you
What I got in store
It’s all yours
I just want more
I can’t get enough of you

[Verse 2]
When I think about us
I think about the way that we make love
The way that you make me sweat
Make me want a cigarette
And I ain’t no smoking chick
But you got me want it
So don’t stop (Yeah)
You making me high (Ohhhhh)
I feel it right there (Yeah)
We tossing and turning
So keep it right there (Yeah)
My adrenaline is pumping right
Stomach muscles getting tight
Skin so wet my finger slides
Gone take you to a place
You ain’t never been (Again and again, want you to feel it baby)
Ohhh ohhhh
I’m bout to handle my business that’s (You…)
Make sure you handle me too


[Chorus X2]
Close the door
Bed or floor
I want more
I can’t get enough of you
What I got in store
It’s all yours
I just want more
I can’t get enough of you
I know you’ll lose after the second round

Put on a little show
To let you baby know
By then I should be screaming uncontrollably
Hope your ready to stay up
One time is not enough (One time)
Cause nothings too much baby
You’re just what I want baby

[Chorus]
Close the door
Bed or floor
I want more
I can’t get enough of you
What I got in store
It’s all yours
I just want more
I can’t get enough of you

Thanks Tamia girl!

...and on that note, I'm out!

Good day, Good people!

~S. Parks

It was a good day...a G.O.O.D. day indeed!

WARNING: This post might offend, defend, and take you aback once or twice b/c its regarding the most controversial black man today and the most controversial subject EVER...black people!

I have been blessed to be in the presence, in the vicinity, in the CLOSE proximity of The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan...insert 4 WOWS!

Yeah, that's how AWESOME he is...I mean yeah I knew The Brother Minister was powerful, but live and in living color is a completely different thing! I mean I was in complete AWE! He is absolutely AMAZING, profound, out-of-this world...there are no words to describe this man, like seriously.

I mean I know how people are confused by him, but that stems from fear...my Brother is indeed the truth, I sincerely believe that and people fear truth, for whatever reason.

My experience on yesterday was one that I will cherish for years to come. For me that was equivalent to hearing Malcolm, Martin, etc. For all you people out there going now it isn't...yeah it is, he is an inspirational, thought-provoking, active black leader, and he deserves much more credit than he is NOT given! The media has just made him into a hate-filled, cult-leading, violence-encouraging leader, which he is really the complete opposite...but I mean he is a black man encouraging black people to unite, protect, and serve for themselves....so surely you wouldn't think the media would portray him in a positive light.

Not to say that Farrakhan is perfect and everything he says I creed as a doctrine to live, NO, but he is the bringing forth the truth no less, and one that blacks should seriously consider adopting...Muslim or not!

Moving on...his lecture...

He spoke on the power of language.
The impact it has on a person, community, race, etc.
He was really focused on the women, b/c he was speaking of the "Don Imus situation", in which he called the Rutgers women's basketball team, some "nappy headed hoes".
The way he broke the language down, was indeed thought-provoking.
The way he made me feel accountable for my actions, my thoughts, my words, was hard but needed.

He talked to the men too, but I feel as though he was directing it to the women, b/c we have become deaf or tolerant of those words. It's become second nature to us, and we are allowing whatever to be said to and about us, b/c we are saying it to ourselves, about ourselves, amongst ourselves.

He also discussed the "n" & "b" words (ones I use quite frequently...as you know I end every post, I say POB...Peace Out Bitches, so I will try to refrain from using that language from this point forward...woo it will be tuff).

Just the way he thinks is so sincere. How he explained that we should not want to call one another bitches b/c that word means a female dog, and if we are calling women that we too are dogs b/c we came from her...hence a son of a bitch. He also noted the movie the Omen, in which the son of the devil, is born into a home of politics, and they attempt to discover who the mother of this seed is, and they find that he comes from a jackal (in the dog family)...wow think about that for a moment...he's saying the devil (our enemy) implanted his seed into a dog and in turn bore a human to take over the world as the devil's son...hence why would we want to be associated in any way w/a dog of any kind?

The hoe/whore thing he explained the whore to be the prostitute. However, she is a business woman, but she sells her body for a certain amount of time in exchange for money or what have you. While a "hoe" is a girl who exposes herself freely, for nothing in return, just for the attention, the negative attention of a man (any man...a man is a man...bottom-line). Which is why, or at least according to Farrakhan, rappers call women hoes. Of course he went into far more details, but those were the things that stuck out in my mind and made sense to me.

He also went into the whole nigger vs. niggA thing, but I mean I knew all that stuff pretty much. However, one thing he siad that I hadn't really thought of was how we as black people went from niggers-->coloreds-->Negroes-->blacks-->African Americans. How we should have just stuck w/black but we allow media and "the enemy" to define us. Also, how ignorant it is to think we could possible take such a degrading term and make it an endearing one, is simply foolish!

Can you say enlightening...yes my brother, yes my sister...the man is THE REAL...and I love it!
However the Muslim experience is a rather unique one...some things I liked some I did NOT, but I was there for the Minister hence I made the best of it, had a marvelous time, and kept it moving!

So in the light of my self-proclaimed Women's Month here on "I'm just a girl...in the world..." I will be reflecting on what it means to be a girl growing into a woman, how I can a be the best woman I can be, and how I can help in the rebuilding of sisterhood (yes there is STILL such a thing).

And thank you Brother Minister for being and you can be & MORE!

We 'preciate it and hopefully we can take it to heart, mind, and life-application!

As I said, I will be trying to refrain from the "b" word...wish me well...thanks!

Good day, good people-->see doing better already ; )

~S. Parks

That's "QUEEN B" to you, bitches!

PHENOMENAL WOMAN by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size But when I start to tell them They think I'm telling lies. I say It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips The stride of my steps The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

I walk into a room Just as cool as you please And to a man The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees Then they swarm around me A hive of honey bees. I say It's the fire in my eyes And the flash of my teeth The swing of my waist And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Men themselves have wondered What they see in me They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say It's in the arch of my back The sun of my smile The ride of my breasts The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say It's in the click of my heels The bend of my hair The palm of my hand The need for my care. 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally Phenomenal woman That's me.

Its Women's Month and I'm standing up for ALL women, just like me.
Black, Bold, and Beautiful...America's #1 Threat!

I love myself, is that a crime?
I love to be loved, even when I'm not.
I love how you stare, it excites me deep within.
I love the way you love me, there I said it, fine you win!

Its hard being a woman, with all the spectators, haters (not slang, but like really "I hate women"), womanizers, ignorance, complacency, standards, guides, rules and regulations.
Bitch I'm grown, who iz you?!
If I like sex, I like sex.
If I like control, I like control.
If I like you, I like you.
If I like money, power, and respect...then I suggest you bag back and gimme my space otherwise I'm taking it, and Iun think you want me to take it..."that's QUEEN B" to you!

Now rub my feet, HA! No really...get DOWN there, NOW!!! What are you doing still standing bitch, I said get low...INCOMING bitches, INCOMING! LOW, LOWER! Lower than a preggers ant's stomach bitch! LOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!!

...and I luv it!

Put your Pilot hats on Women and pilot/police the (hate this word, btw) p*ssy the entire month of MAY...it holds ALL the power!

!YES!

!POB!

~S. Parks