Wow!...Lupe, don't hurt em, the first song into the album and that's how you talking, they not ready, and come to think about it, neither was I!
So yeah man, that line really sticks out to me, and has been since I first heard the track. It so profound in its simplicity. I mean do we really think about the fact (well as far as we know) that this is the only life, the only chance to make a statement, leave a legacy, change the world, save a life(could very well be your own), experience every human emotion possible, to have a child, to be rich, to sail the seas, to build a house, or whatever desires your heart. Do you really stop and think that today could very well be your last?! That 2 seconds ago, someone just like you and me no longer has that opportunity...well this past week I thought of all those things for just that reason.
It was really a ruff week, man. I was just emotionally draining from deaths to disappointments to frustrations to misunderstandings to my life or lack there of...then I started to think about the young man who I knew of, that lost his life this week to what was seemingly some foolishness, and I pondered what could possibly be so awful that I would partake in self-pity, that this was all life had to offer me, that I would have the audacity to even think depressing thoughts-allowing my situations to determine my outcome, to even lose the slightest bit of faith in the God I serve (yes I know you thought I was Satan's spawn, even sinners need love too, in fact I recall that Jesus died for a lil sinner just like me...aight that's my bible lesson for the day, but trust I knows the LORD : D). There is no excuse for my behavior (other than I'm human and I get a lil tired sometimes), simply b/c I am in control of my life, and in doing so I decided to give complete control to the God I serve (while sometimes I forget and try to do things my way, ultimately failing, miserably...I come back rather quickly), and if I in fact trust Him, as I do, I should already know that everything that occurs is according to His will, His simple (if I allow it to be) plan.
While I did not, personally, know the young man, who I mentioned earlier, I was deeply saddened upon hearing the news of his death. While I wasn't confused or frustrated, I was definitely hurt that another young brother lost his life for seemingly no reason @ all. He appeared to be a good guy, doing the right thing, living the life, and trying to create a better one for his people. And that is what has caused me to think..."who am I?!" So great that bad or ruff times should surpass me(actually I have dealt with ruff times all my life), I simply thought I deserved a break b/c I am fighting to be a good person, who tries to do what's right and trying to make a change in this cold, cold world...but then I think about that saying (in which I hate so much) "things could be a lot worse" and I quickly get over myself!
Brother Malcolm said it best, "there is no better than adversity. Every defeat, every heartbreak, every loss, contains its own seed, its own lesson on how to improve your performance next time." So no I can't say why or even how God chose to take the young man at what may have seemed to be a pinnacle point in his life, was it to teach us a lesson, to open our eyes, to encourage us to preserve the present b/c tomorrow surely is not promised, whether you're 19 or 99...who knows, but this what I took from it that as of today I'm living for the moment I ain't living for the future (bet E-40 didn't know he was being so profound)! However, I will plan for the future and what I feel is the direction I should be going in, at the same time being mindful that God has ultimate control so I have to live everyday like its my very last (very cliche but very real, and we claim to favor real....ummm hmmm, 'nother post, 'nother day).
Patience is definitely a virtue, one that I am learning to develop, and procrastination is definitely ungodly, one that I am fighting w/missiles! That's my mindset for the week...be patient yet proactive! And w/that I'm out!
May you rest in peace, my brother, your life, I'm sure was an inspiration but your death has been an example, and touched far more than could be imagined.
Note to self: make your life an example of the impossible while living, as opposed to an example of urgency, upon death.
And the Church said...
AMEN, lol!
~S.
I told you, I was about changing lives baby, now are you ready for a breakthrough?!
1 comment:
I think whenever a young person loses their life, it's a slight wake-up call for the rest of us. Maybe it's God's way of saying "Hello people! Let's get it together!" It's hard to understand, but as all Grannies say, you don't question God. Just keep in mind, it's all apart of his devine plan. So I think your re-examination of your life & mood is just what he intended!
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