Iunno. Iunjusno.

So...today's post is brought to you in part by...duh dunh dunh *insert royal music*
The Randomness that is Sdot Parks! *and the crowd goes wild*

I was thinking...

When you like someone. How do you know exactly?
Does it feel the same way every time???
I don't think so.

I was thinking...

Is it really possible to have sex w/a "friend" & still remain just friends???
Like even if all the details are discussed pre-intimacy.
Or even be on the same level of friendship you were pre-discussion.
I'm starting not to think so.

I was thinking...

How much of your emotions can you can control w/o missing out (wtf that means)???
Like is it possible to say "okay, I don't want to go this route" ???
I think so...but others think I'm just too tuff.

I was thinking...

How many boys can you like @ one time, before being termed a "hoe" or acking like a "nigga"???
What are the qualifications of a hoe??? (Not that I'm tryna be one...I'm jus saying.) Though sometimes I feel like one...when boys just want to (for lack of a better word) fuck me!
What's that about???
I think the answer is relative.

I was thinking...

What the hell am I doing w/my life man? I swear Idunno!
I mean. Like. I really don't know.
Lord please intervene!

I was thinking...

Am I obsessed w/my weight b/c I want to be healthy or b/c I'm insecure?
Or both?
I wonder...
Will I ever be satisfied w/the way who I am, physically???
Iunno. Iunjusno.

I was thinking...

I'm nervous that I'll never find "the one".
Is there a one??? Or is that a fairy tale???
I'm nervous that I will not get married but I'll be okay w/that...or...will I???
Iunno. Iunjusno.

I was thinking...

Is sex overrated???
Or underrated???
I think its relative.
I like sex...like a lot!
...and I'm okay w/that.


I was thinking...

How much time do I really have to get my life together???
Like I wish I had a deadline...you know...that way I could plan.
Guess that's life...unpredictable...gotta plan for the unseen!
I mean that's just me. Iunnno. Iunjusno.

I was thinking...

You don't really have to like anyone, you know...its like an option, right?
Right.
I mean.
Who really knows anybody???
Like sometimes I wonder.
Why do I even have friends?
Them bitches don't love me.
But then I reminisce.
...but Iunno. Iunjusno!

I was thinking...

What if I fell in love in again???
Would it be better?
Would it be worth it?
Would I be happy?
Would I be satisfied?
Would he be "the one"???
When? How? Who? Why? What?
Iunno. Iunjusno.

I was thinking...

I'm pretty fucking awesome!
I think I'm like the best thing since well, hey Jesus.
I mean somebody said Elvis (yes I'm from Memphis & its Elvis week--UUGH! *rolls eyes*) was like the best thing since Jesus so hey why can't I be???
Okay, no really. I don't think that.
However. I do think I'm pretty fucking awesome.
I just need to fig. out how to channel the damn shit!
Hmmm...Lord please intervene. I surrender! I surrender ALL!

Get yo self together Sdot Parks...as you know...the world waits for no one!!!

Harder. Better. Faster. STRONGER!!!

And on that note...I'm blowing...this bitch!

Buzzing & all...

My most random post to date...
So...do y'all think differently of me???
SO! Iun care...well I kinda do...but I mean hey...who doesn't?!
Whoever says they don't care what folk think is either:
Full of that shit or on that cooked crack!
Thanks.

Glad you stopped in for a lil qt w/the homie Sdot
As you know...I does what I can!
...and right now I can go to sleep so...
Though I've had insomina for like a week..hopefully this chardonnay will help.
...that or that good ole Vitaman D ; ) good for the mind, body, & soul! YEAYUH!

POB!!!

~Sdot